it is a good thing i'm a swim instructor/ swimmer/wear sunglasses all the time because my eyes have been pretty puffy all day and you never would have known it was from crying. dane left this morning for the summer, and it is a cliche reason but valid reason nonetheless to be sad and upset and sort of scared, although there really is nothing to ( Read more... )

Boredom is the enemy. No, looking for a new job is. It's sort of harrowing really, putting oneself out there. I'm trying not to be bitter about Cuesta, but honestly I've worked there for five years and it's gone to hell in the past two months. It really has. I've come to the decision that quitting head guard is the best thing to do, because ( Read more... )

yay, sometimes i love my life. i have strep throat, i think, however of course unfortunately it is a sunday, so unless i want to pay five million dollars to go get antibiotics from the emergency room i have to wait till the morning to go get a lovely and comforting "culture" scraped from my throat. bloody painful. my throat is approximately one ( Read more... )

I'm back from Europe, two weeks early. There are many reasons for this, and over the past few days of being home I've been trying to deal with everything. It is a happy trying to deal....I've never been so glad to be home. Ever. The emotions I'm feeling now are interesting to go through though. The things that I saw and experienced on my trip ( Read more... )

hummmmm well it is 11 days until i am off to the land of hopefully lovely europe. how could it not be lovely though? i am feeling like this is a big deal, but also like it will be okay, really, because everything is right now. everything is so lovely in fact that i'm nervous to go, and it's interesting how you can plan something so far in ( Read more... )

I've been on this anxious thing for like a week now. I can't sleep very well and so in efforts to go to sleep since I usually have to wake at some ridiculous hour I watch movies such as Sense and Sensibility or Garden State. It doesn't work though, in fact these heart-wrenching films mainly just make me think more about the situation at hand, if ( Read more... )

So tomorrow I'm going down to L.A. with Rinn's family to pick her up. She's coming in Sunday morning, and I'm so excited, I just can't believe it. It is very very stormy right now and I neglected to go swimming as a result of this, so I'll do it at 6:30 tomorrow morning. Aaah, the easier way. Right. I'm feeling very reflective lately, having ( Read more... )

Excellent evening. We made up a new scale: the scale of brine. Tonight was definitely around a 12 on the scale of brine, this being out of ten. Van and Cammi and I went out on this extremely small dinghy thing, one of many abandoned, in the bay. It had oars and the whole thing was an extremely serious mission. I was fairly confident on my ( Read more... )

Damn it. It turns out that some of my cds were stolen after all. Some Luna, some Belle and Sebastian (luckily I have 2 copies of Boy With the Arab Strap, ha!), my Devendra Banhart (no. no. noooooooo), a Smog, a Strokes, the Sigur Ros () album, Polyphonic Spree (honesly, what??).....what idiot drug addict would listen to the Polyphonic Spree?? ( Read more... )

I am writing from Waitakere, New Zealand......it's so weird, I feel like I've been gone forever but it's been less than a month. I really miss my Santa Cruz friends and I feel sort of weird that I'm not coming back to school (well for a good few months anyway). But this trip has so far reinforced that this was the right thing to do. This place ( Read more... )