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Random Nonsense
It feels really weird that I am leaving in less then a week to go to Kansas to meet Jeromy's family. I'll admit, I'm getting nervous. Although, I'm more nervous for when Jeromy gets to meet my mother right after. The whole situation just blows my mind.... Here is my schedule for the next few weeks:
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Okay..... today is cleaning day. Back when I was healthy, I used to just tidy every day, and then the big cleaning day was on the weekend. I'd be able to get it all done within a couple of hours. Wow, have times ever changed. I have to depend majorly on Jeromy to get most of the cleaning done, while I try and help and keep him motivated.
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So I had a bit of an episode today.
As I was getting ready to leave Heather's place (my nails look fabulous by the way), the pain started to get worse. I had taken my meds an hour before, so it was unusual that it was increasing, instead of decreasing like it should have. I sat down for a few minutes, but I had to leave since Heather had to go to ( Read more... ) -
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I don't really have a topic that I wanted to write about. I just felt the need to write, didn't really matter what, I just felt that I needed to.
I'm leaving soon to go get my nails done. I love having a friend thats an aesthetition. I'm getting super expensive gel nails put on, for free! I only have to pay to fill it, after all, it is her job, I ( Read more... ) -
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I often wonder if I will succeed in this business. The problems with my health so often hold me back from being able to do anything. Thankfully today is a bit of a better day today, especially since I have to make two deliveries, and will have to drive.
Yet what is very discouraging at the moment is that I have no parties booked... not one. How can ( Read more... ) -
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This will just be a quick note since I'm very tired. Even though probably no one reads my entries, I don't care. Even being able to get a few lines out has actually become soothing.
I had always believed it was bogus, but I actually feel calmer. I like being able to just take some time to myself for a moment and actually enjoy it. You can write ( Read more... ) -
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I hate drugs, and the addictions that they cause. Even if someone quits, it will always haunt them. The old phrase "once an addict, always an addict" is such an accurate term... but such a depressing one. I'm on the outside looking in, and its so hard to help someone that doesn't want help.
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Writer's Block: Really, Truly
I definitely believe in love at first sight, and true love. The first moment I saw Jeromy, I totally knew that he was the one. We've been together for about a year and a half now. The interesting thing to note is that I have been sick, pretty much bed-ridden for over a year. If there is one way to test a relationship, whew, what a year. The crazy ( Read more... ) -
Anxiety
I sometimes wonder why it makes me uncomfortable to go out in public now. There has always been a bit of fear, going out in public, being amongst crowds of people... but since I've been sick, its gotten so much worse. I actually feel quite a bit of anxiety now, whenever Jeromy says he wants to take me out, even just going out for a drive I feel ( Read more... ) -
First Times
Guess there always has to be a first for everything. Including getting the first post out of the way. Not really sure how much I'm going to use this site as I already have a journal that I write in every evening. Although, its more of a way to keep track how I am feeling physically and sometimes mentally. There isn't enough room to go on rants if I ( Read more... )