so Drew and I went to Chestnut Ridge Park and went slogging through leaves and mud and climbed up a waterfall. And I didn't fall on my ass once. I rather missed running about outside. I usually wander Delaware Park, but there's not nearly as many fun places to explore. Plus I'm usually by myself and sitting up a tree. Anyhoo ( Read more... )

Every day is a little stranger. A little angrier. A little more tired. My journey through the Fire Swamp is turning up more questions than answers. I'm not happy about the knowledge I've acquired. It makes my head hurt and my eyes leak, and I don't sleep because I think too much about it ( Read more... )

I can never get this muck from 'round my eyes ( Read more... )

so I found out that I'm in fact not late in my grad school audition application. And if I send them this money, then there is absolutely no turning back. I'll be moving forward toward my career. But it's absolutely petrifying. I'm on my own in this endevor, and I know that my friends and family will support me no matter what. It's just really ( Read more... )

so my show is over. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I'm happy that I might actually get more SLEEP (yeah right). I have a lot of schoolwork to catch up on. But goddam if I'm not going miss all those people. And I'll no longer have the show to lose myself in and distract me from all the crap that's been effectively keeping me in a ( Read more... )

"you know, I fucked up big time when I didn't cast you in the show in the first place."

thank you Mr. Kahn. I love you too

I hate my life. I'm tired of feeling this way. I don't know how to fix it.

"A good friend will come bail you out of jail.... But a ( Read more... )

so I had a bit of a meltdown at rehearsal. The past couple of days have been excruciating. Tech runs are hell when you have a 5 hour stop-and-go and you are in the beginning and end of a show. You sit around and read. A lot. You get bored and your mind wanders. I started thinking about all the stuff that's really been messing with my head ( Read more... )

so I was woken up this morning by my mother telling me that there was a strange message on the machine for me. It turns out that my scumbag ex-boyfriend Dan called my house before 7:30 this morning pretending to be his best friend Jeremiah. And he said he was Jeremiah because he knows that he's not supposed to call my house because my parents ( Read more... )