came home and kitty was being great hadn't messed the house, was moving good. Let her out and she was running, called her to me and i hugged her and patted her, she yiped. I am so afraid of the time. It is coming. She is in great spirits, but I need to start prepping myself

Went to work for a couple of hours today, sucked. Then I went ot Cat tales. That made my whole week. I got to help with Locks and waters checks and then feeding. I walked Carney Alley. That is the alley that runs all the lion and tiger cages. You have 600 pound carnivores on either side of you. It was great. I tried to deal with a heckler ( Read more... )

Dinner journal: hamburger with spicy steak rub. Until I get these recipes online i am going to summarize them. spicy steak rub is cayenne pepper, brown sugar, paprika chili powder, 3 diferent herbs (i cheat and use italian seasonings which gives extra flavors) and granulated garlic. Rub that into hamburgers and cook on the grill (indoor electric ( Read more... )

Feel like I am on a rollercoaster. All the people I have been talking to and getting know are starting to become "real". Not just letters on the screen. They have become voices on the phone and I have met several. Now we go into the wild ride. WHat happens? Do I meet someone and develop a relationship? That is what it feels like is building ( Read more... )

Well, had a stressful day. It was all I could do to keep myself from tearing into the people I work with. Asking stupid questions, they already know the answers! And needing their fucking hands held through the simplest shit, ugh. Gotta go in at 8 tam this morning for a presentation on sexual harassment. Fuck that ( Read more... )

I spent 3 hours on the phone with Bridgette last night. Tonigth about an hour and a half. It scares me. We are hiiting it off very well.This is when it keeps falling apart. Will we actually get to meet? And then what? I should be happy but there is this gloom that keeps hanging over me. Maybe she;ll help me get over it. I need to.

My god, a four year old niece can wear me out. Actually, I am surprised. I felt younger and better with her than I have in some time. Is that the secret of children? Do they keep us young? The people i work with are six or more years younger than me. They make me feel old. But this crazy, silly kid makes me laugh and giggle and feel alive. ( Read more... )

My friend Jen just referred me. Not quite sure what i should say, what i should write. I think about the times i have spent working with the wild cats, the parties from the past week, and the expectation of seeing my neice tomorrow. I feel positive about my life. There is an apprehension, but that is my cynical self saying thhhbbbppp.