If God wants to make my life better, why do I keep giving him a hard time?

Don't you hate when you have dreams that bring up memories, old flames, things that were considered dead to you? Well, I had one of those about an ex boyfriend. I don't even think about him on a daily basis, but in my dream, I was reminded of the feeling he gave me. Not the feeling of loneliness or a brokenheart at first, the feeling that came ( Read more... )

I'm sorta jittery today. I think it's because of the dreams I'm having. It's the guilt followed by the dreams that I don't even remember. It's convincing people to be as messed up as me and love it. Don't be like me people. Eat when you are hungry, eat healthy, exercise and you will be fine. Don't be sad and depressed about weight because you can ( Read more... )

Today was a long day. I worked as long as I could for extra money and I hung out with my friend right after to prolong eating. I can still eat tonight, but I don't have taste for anything I have. I might run to the store and get some milk and cereal (my favorite food ( Read more... )

I have 2 more pounds to lose by the end of the day on the 31st. I think I'll make it. I'm glad I still lost weight considering I ate some girlscout cookies! I mean, they were whispering to me in my sleep. It's almost time for me to eat so I'm going to prepare my food in time to watch america's next top model. pease!

Yes! I finally get the schedule I want, all days no nights and weekends!! One of my best friends is the manager so it's not even like she cared. I am also starting back at UMKC this summer so I have to work my butt off to get the funds ( Read more... )

So i've been practicing this dance from making the band 3. It's awesome....here's what it looks like (also thinspiration sorta)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bW-vCN2fY9U

Everything in the world right now is telling me to eat. It's only 12:37pm on a saturday so it's like boring and food is calling my taste buds. I have to be at work at 5:00pm so if I can only make it 4 1/2 hours, I will be fine ( Read more... )

day 4 of eating very little 160 cals. I have a deadline so I can't play anymore. I have a busy day today so it can be done. Also Sunday my daughter is being dedicated to the church and shortly after that I'm going to visit an old friend so that day is busy as well. after I start working next week, I will have no problem restricting. I will also ( Read more... )

So everyday my ex keeps calling me. I won't let it get to me. I told him how much weight I've lost and now he's saying he wants to lose weight too. 6 pack right? you know, he's said that ever since we started dating in 05 ( Read more... )