My dad stormed out of the house six days ago after an argument. Him leaving is nothing new..but he usually comes back the next day or two. I don't know if he's gone for good. I've basically been numb on the whole thought of him not coming back. I'm not even sure if I want him to come home ( Read more... )

alright..this is just a quick entry to let you all know i'm still alive and to apologize for not commenting on any journals. it's been pretty busy around here. i went through a week of rehab now i'm out and i have to go through therapy. i've basically improved, but i find it all pretty stupid because it's just making me dwell on my fucked up ( Read more... )

If anyone is actually reading this, I'm telling you now I'm not looking for your attention or your sympathy. I just find that it helps me release some of what I'm feeling when I write it down and talk about it. I'd rather be telling this to virtually complete strangers who I'll never have to face, than to people I'm going to have to face every day ( Read more... )

I got this from Cynicalfox's journal.

( boredom strikes.. )

I really love the fact that the farther I try to stay away from drama, the easier it seems to find me. It's pathetic ( Read more... )

Matt and I are ok again..thank god..I knew it wouldn't last long, but it sucks when I can't talk to him. The night after the incident he called me and told me to come down to his house. And he basically told me why it pissed him off so much..but he understands why I did it. We just chilled for a little while..he showed me this new song he wrote. It ( Read more... )

Living isn't so fun right now. These past few days things that I can usually look past and that I normally don't let hurt me, have been killing me ( Read more... )

Yeah thing's aren't happy around here. My dad and older bro got into a fight yesterday. Billy got so freaking messed up by him too..I hate my dad. I'm not just saying that out of immature anger..I truthfully say that from my heart. I don't think I've ever actually hated someone before until him. Billy refused to go the ER..So I just laid with him ( Read more... )

Yeah people need to die. Today SUCKED. A bunch of guys were giving Matt shit today. By fourth period he must have been in about three fights with them. When I was walking out of history three of them had Matt pinned against the wall. They were screaming all this shit in his face about being a "fag" and whatever..god I hate that word. I hate them. ( Read more... )

( surveys suck. )