Things have been pretty rough the past couple weeks. I started therapy back. Not for the "usual" reasons. Just for other inner issues I'm trying to work on. After talking about the way I had been feeling, Mike started off by pointing out the good things as far as not having any "episodes" *rolls eyes*, being more mature and level headed about so ( Read more... )

"You know when you're little and you want a toy really bad for a long time, then you get it and it's like 'Why did I pay 39.95 plus tax for this?', well that's not how it is with you ( Read more... )

I've become very angry. Not a bitter mean old lady (ha), just very tired of the way people and the world work. People are too close minded if they do happen to have their own mind. There are so many people who take things way to far just because that's what cool. Like racism, being a racist redneck, homosexuality, bisexuality, and/or being too ( Read more... )

Ozzfest kicked ass. I had a good time. Got there around 11:30, walked around and shit. I got a BLS shirt and Robbie got a Dimebag shirt at the guitar tribute exhibit, which was awesome. Then we just kind of chilled during a few bands on 2nd stage so we wouldn't be dead before BLS. Well, it was about four bands before them and we decided to start ( Read more... )

It's done. I finally realized that getting Robbie aka Baby (tee hee, which is apparently his name now.. not just from me, it's caught on haha) his dream guitar was feasable. I talked to mom, which made me kind of nervous. Not even a problem with her at all. According to her though, Robbie is the one paying for it. She's very weird about how I spend ( Read more... )

These past couple days have been more than I can handle. First, I felt I almost lost one of the most important people in the world to me, my best friend of 15 years. Robbie and I went out Thursday, having a great time together, as always, then I get a call and shit goes horribly wrong. I was just talking to Robbie about it and he's getting upset ( Read more... )

I guess some things will never really be over. ;)

I know my dad's going to be okay. But, these "what if's" keep popping into my head. I can't STAND the thought of losing dad. I'm pretty sure that's not even an option, but my parents never tell me things that can "hurt" me. I didn't find out my great-grandmother died until a year later and I learned that by accident. I just can't help but worry ( Read more... )

I found out Benji's going to Morehead U. At first I had mixed feelings. True, we have a non-existant relationship now, but I was just thinking "There goes all hope of us ever being friends again, because I'll never see him again." So I cried. As, I always do. But, at the same time, I was so incredibly happy for him. He is miserable here and this ( Read more... )

( My dad sent this to me. I thought it was great. )