so i'm back. for now. been a long time coming. got my head sorted and now well, we'll see.

I guess you can say it's officially over....

I'm home.

It's good to be home.

It's sad to be home too.

Things just haven't gone exactly how I had planned them. I suppose even the best laid plans can't always work.

Things have been better.

I'm in France visiting a friend and then I'm going to New Zealand to visit Shawn to figure a few things out.

Yes, this is all you get for an update at the moment.

6 months. Funny how I spent the day with everyone but who it should have been spent with.

I suppose I need to update. A lot has happened in such a short amount of time. Since I've been sick, things have been, well let's just say strained. I don't know why or what for, but they have been. I've felt like crap and had my own issues to deal with and I've been doing them alone. Shawn has been busy with work and trying not to get sick. I ( Read more... )

Well I'm officially sick. Though there are many people who knew before me, but with my extreme fear of hospitals, I've been pushing it back. I did however spend most of yesterday in emergency. I ended up on an IV and came home with a bunch of pills. It seems that I have a blood infection. I have to go back to the hell place again today to make sure ( Read more... )

I can't even explain about what's been going on in my head. I don't even know myself. I've been in a horrific mood lately. Doubting myself, not wanting to leave England as well as other things. Since I was sick at the end of March my head has been fuzzy and I'm trying desperately to find a way to clear it. So far my long walks with Cole have done ( Read more... )

It's good to be back in Scotland. We had Easter with my family which was great. Now we're home and it's good to be back. Something been missing and I always feel back home I can find it. Here is where I feel the best. It's life blood to me, and whenever I feel down, this place can surely pick me up. It's great to be here. I'm glad of it. I think it ( Read more... )

I've caught a bug. I'm sick and it sucks incredibly. I've been laying in bed all morning and I feel just awful. Shawn got up and went to work this morning and I couldn't even bring myself to stir much. I know I told him to have a good day and just cuddled under the covers even more. Maybe I have been walking around town a bit too much. Whatever the ( Read more... )