On the death of Sean Watson

[mcdanger]

Anyone who's talked to me during this past week has, more than likely, heard me make at least one distasteful comment about the recent deaths at our school. Probably more. I didn't really know either of the kids who died in the car crash, but Sean Watson I was familiar with. Sean was the archetypical unpopular kid; fat, ugly, unsociable, balding.

Comments

[lindsaygal05]

What is the point of life if not to find your purpose, it's not like, at 17 anyone really knows the sort of person they are.Purpose is something to be discovered.You have complete control over the person that you are becoming. Give yourself a little time, hm?

[scottsadork]

She's right, that's why a death at such a young age is easily seen as such a travesty. Yet at the same time can still be easily forgotten. At the age of 16, 17, or 18, you've not had enough time to leave your scar on the world. You've been too busy with confining yourself to a room completing math assignments, or in your case chemistry writeups. Too busy sitting in front of a computer writing whiney LiveJournals such as myself. People may spend a lifetime finding acceptance toward themself. Working toward a goal to be remembered as something great. While at the same time questioning "What if I died tomorrow? What mark would I of left in my name?" Most will fail miserably at reaching that goal of becoming something famous. But leaving something behind doesn't have to be a materialistic object such as money, or a story in your case. To leave on a good note. That you were nice to as many people as possible. Leaving them with some kind of mental rememberance of what you were. That is what I strive to one day be able to

[dragonguyver]

Yeah, this sounds exactly the same as when this freshman Josh kid I didn't even knew existed died when I was a junior. I found out that everyone had given him shit, even his "friends" but as soon as he was dead everyone was his best friend. They handed out ribbons for everyone to wear, and when they came to me with one I said that I hadn't even known he was alive until he was dead, so there was no reason for me to wear a ribbon over it. I got some scowls for that. People are total hypocrites, and when anyone dies they just freak out and can't handle it.

Some of what you write about yourself reminds me of The Fall bu Camus which I just finished, you might give it a read. I can't really comment on it, though, because I don't really know you or anything, but I don't think you're whining. People have accused me of that enough times, anyway. As far as self-loathing goes... ask yourself if you ever molested any children.

[mcdanger]

Lindsay/Scott: It's not a matter of "oh, I'm only 17, there's still plenty of time to stop being an asshole and leave a strong mark on the world". It's a matter of "he's seventeen and there is no potential or indication of future success". Come on, at least eight times out of ten you can spot the kids who will do things with their lives and the kids who are just going to fail. Those kids who go on to do things were already excelling much earlier than me; usually around 12. You wanna tell me I'm too young to be worrying about my accomplishments? Fine. Then we'll just pretend that there aren't hundreds of kids in my school with better grades than me, or jobs that aren't just menial labor, or award-winning art, or hell, just people who can be nice to others. I'm at the bottom of the ladder kids, and no matter how hard I try--be it through writing, my car wreck of a club, or just resolving to stop being an ass to people--I'm not going to move.

Dragonguyver: I had sex with a pregnant woman once. So that's sorta like raping a fetus.

[scottsadork]

Aaron I thought better of you than to say that. I thought you could understand that I waS behind you on this. Our school has become plagued with phony, stuck up, suburbian kids such as you and I. Yet, why is than an ambition to make you care of where you stand on some fictional, "Social Ladder" that may probably have been invented by some cocky or really insecure psychiatrist. Why do you feel you need to be accepted by these people. From what I've noticed, you seem to be more down on yourself than others are toward you. The offputting attitude toward yourself, and toward the way you seem you could have the right to judge another person is the only thing holding you back. To be able to pedict the success of a persons life, when the only competent information you have of this person is through hearsay, from a kid who probably treated him like shit. As well as through seeing him walk through halls of the school, is just absurd. You didn't know his homelife just as much as myself. Yes the possibility of him becoming succesful or

Aaron --

[wildchild47]

If you think your life is tough, take it as a compliment. You were given a challenge in life in order to test your strength. People who are dealt a royal flush may have received that hand only because they are weak and wouldn't survive any other way.
You have some mad writing skillz and I'm sure you will excell in life if you keep on working hard.

[yourface]

I think, my dear, that you have just touched upon the reason people invented religion.