Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, ( Read more... )

So its been a pretty crazy last few weeks, ever since Rochester (and well a couple weeks before, hehe)... hopefully slowing down with the nice relaxing beach weekend last weekend and another one this weekend, hopefully… been doing a lot of thinking lately (fuck who am I kidding I think about this shit all the time)… what I need to do… where I need ( Read more... )

"This is a time for reflection as well as celebration.

As you look back on the past year and all that has taken place in your life,

Remember each experience for the good that has come of it
and for the knowledge and wisdom you have gained.

Remember the efforts you have made and the goals you have reached.

Remember the love you have shared and the ( Read more... )

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Been feeling strange lately… up and down at the same time… melancholy but filled with promise and hope… looking forward to a better future for once… realizing that, that is all we can do to stay sane and on the right path, the positive path… deal with the shit life throws at you but don't let it get the better of you… know that you can't control ( Read more... )

What are you truly thankful for?  What touches your heart so much that you would do anything to safeguard it?  What would you die for?  What do you live for?  Whatever those things are give thanks and cherish them all year long not just tomorrow.

Why cant u see that I’m right here

Why don’t u know that I’m right here

Why do u go when I’m right here

Why can’t I flow when ur not here?

Why can’t I go past my fears?

Why can’t I show u my tears?

Cuz ur my inspiration

Ur my muse

My sole aspiration

What I wish to

Feels like desperation

So confused

Just ur consolation

Defines my blues

You are my heart but u ( Read more... )

My brain swelling, this melon, my soul is dwelling on thoughts of things..

life and all that ish…. Life delish… but back to the matter at hand… the proceedings..

the “if you please-ings”… YOU.. yeah I said YOU.. YOU mutha fucka.. YOU hear me yet? Is this loud enough? YOU must stop the insanity, no one else will!!!! Can’t YOU see that?  Can YOU feel ( Read more... )

“If we spend our time with regrets over yesterday, and worries over what might happen tomorrow, we have no today in which to live.” - Anonymous

wise words but easier said then done... I take it to heart though, my mantra of the week

The last week of October and the first few days of November hold a special place of misery and depression in my past and those thoughts come to the forefront tonight... three different relationships met with unwanted demise in this 10 day period over the course of my short life...usually I get even more stoned and detatched from things but with my ( Read more... )