if you understand then please, PLEASE reply... but if you don't then... just go away

[me_uw]

I've always had this fear that whenever I let people into my heart, they'll know my fears and they'll use them against me. Well folks, today, March 9, 2005 I've basically lost my love. I had known to be careful not to let him into my heart, but instead I saw he needed someone to care for him and about him so I did and in doind so, allowed myself to

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[sonic43003]

That's not what I ment.......*Kills self...* It'd be better this way...

[kamakazie_kiss]

im sorry hunni. i hope things get better soon! well i know they will ^.^ smile for me my sweet! ill make it to monkfish sooner or later!

lovies

[darkend_silence]

you are right about the love thing. I was in love in 5th grade and remain to this day in love with that same person. Love knows no ages, it knows no bounds. I just wish that people could understand that... and i bet you do too.

[darkend_silence]

and i understand about leaving the one person you love most. For i have offered it many a time, knowing that they are happy... but in my mind i wonder if maybe they would be happier without me.. so i offer.. i have done it before. I offer to leave if it means they will be happier. If it means they will lead a better and fuller life. It is something that i think proves love. If you are willing to give them up for their happiness, even if it means misery for you... i think that in some way IS love. No matter what. Maybe not true love, but love all the same.

love is timeless, yet never complacent...

[agyw]

It's always a mistake to discount feelings. But love is so much more than a feeling. It's also a behavior, a willful act. Though little in this life is permanent, what remains in your heart, is. The thing is... YOU decide what remains. What has importance, who has sway

i quit

[nakitakunaruno]

i question, what the hell was your reason for saying that shit about me?

you think it tears YOU up inside!?!?! wut the hell do you think its doing to me!?!?! i thought that maby you, one of my closest friends would understand but i guess not, you decide to turn it around and make it one of your own problems and basically use my pain against me. i really dont get you.

fine you wanna be alone? go right ahead. you dont wanna be my friend im not gonna force you. have it your way.

Re: i quit

[me_uw]

you can question it all you want, and the sad thing is: I will ALWAYS be here to answer you. And it's not "shit". It's the painful truth. I never told you how much it hurt me to see you tear out the hearts of your elegid loves and mangle and twisted them to fit your pleasure. I figured, why not let you be loved since you'd been hurt so badly before by it. Yet with every passing day I knew that I should say something, ANYTHING to warn you to be careful or else all three of you would have to pick up your peices and I'd be the one between all of you trying to help, running back and forthe. And I never said it wasn't tearing you apart just as much if not more. I just said you're not the only on hurting from this. Try being me. I've already been you (not literally but you should understand. And if not than oh well too bad). But go ahead. Try being me. Try being best friends with the three of you, loving the one you are the closest to but never having that love returned and then having to watch the one you care for, care for so deeply that

Re: i quit

[nakitakunaruno]

do you know how many times you contradicted your self in that reply?!?

so you say that u never let me into your heart? but you truely care about me?
im confused by alot of your ranting.

you could have maby once told me that this whole thing bothered you.... *sigh*

"If I'm psycho when somebody pokes you a bunch of times after you've aked/told them to stop and you aren't completely in my heart, imagine how fucked up those people would look when they arrived at the morgue if you WERE in the core of my heart. "

^ i dont get what you meant by that, explain if you care.

whatever