Your capable first mate ssdd81788 ( Read more... )

he's gone... he's more gone then ever.... everything i've done i've done for him...EVERYTHING. and now he's left me when i really need someone... he's the only one who knows... no, not true, he and Josh know... and they've both left me right when i've really needed them. and now i fear i may not be here in this world for much longer... if i don't ( Read more... )

so.... i know I haven't updated since that last one (well that's kinda like stating the obvious now then isn't it? lol) and that one was like.... yea.... nu.... but anyways! so here i am...... updating.... AND BEING HAPPINESS LIKE ( Read more... )

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY ( Read more... )

so.... boredy bored... yeah... so just talked to Freddy... made me tell him how I'm really feeling (said something along the lines of: I'm feeling hyper right now... but it's only to cover what I'm really feeling underneath...)... so I told him... well actually I gave him a modified list of what I'm feeling but still... I think he got the point ( Read more... )

Ijust want to make his pain stop. I want to take it and make it my own so that he doesn't have to deal with it. I want to make it so that he doesn't have to deal with all of this sh*t. But I can't, and it's driving me off the freaking wall. I can't sleep any more. can't think straight. Don't want to eat so I usually don't ('cept when I'm at home I ( Read more... )

I've always had this fear that whenever I let people into my heart, they'll know my fears and they'll use them against me. Well folks, today, March 9, 2005 I've basically lost my love. I had known to be careful not to let him into my heart, but instead I saw he needed someone to care for him and about him so I did and in doind so, allowed myself to ( Read more... )

I have no clue what to say here... I just read one of the scariest/worst (sad worse) lj post ever... I love him... why can't he see that? I love him and ONLY him... and I could never, NEVER hate him. So then why is that what we all each of us fear it? Why do we fear that we'll lose the ones we love most? I can tell you why I fear it: because ( Read more... )

*~((Fear is an often overlooked aspect of, beleive it or not, strength. Either annonymously or not, leave me a comment telling me your biggest fear. Then, copy this and put it in your Livejournal to see what your friends have to say ( Read more... )

I'm bored and appearantly Tippy and I are taking turns with updating....... so I'm bored and nobody 'cept Tippy's on.... so here I am...... updating......... with nothing to update about really............. *sigh* isn't this always the case ( Read more... )