In the last 2 years I'd lost friends that had been really important to me in my first year here. Either through distance or douchebaggary, they weren't there for me, or the people I'd been friends with. And it made me really sad. I think part of my post-break-up-break-down had to do with the fact that I felt like I was losing a lot of people in ( Read more... )

You know those agreements people make: "If we're not married by the time we're 40, we'll marry each other". Denis told me his (our) friend's ex said that to him (our friend, not Denis) and our friend pretty much told his ex to fuck off. It got me thinking, why do people make these agreements? Why do they propose such things? Marriage is forever ( Read more... )

I'm meant to be having this party tonight and in the last 24 hours half the fucking guest list has cancelled! Even my best Halifax friends have bailed on me. I've told them that I feel like shit, and lovely and sad and they don't do anything. I feel like if it was the other way around, I'd go out of my way to be there for them, but I apparently ( Read more... )

So, it's been a month. And it's been nearly 2 weeks of me not talking to him at all. Today I felt lonely.

I was doing so well at the start of these last 2 weeks. I really felt like not having contact with him was the best idea, and I still feel that way. But today I felt lonely. And I missed him. Shit I thought I was past the crying part.

I went to a part on Friday. My friend Holly graduated. So she was the only one that I knew at this party, and because of that, Denis didn't come. It was good. We ended up at someone else's place and at the end of the night I was standing on the balcony with just this guy, Kevin. We were just sitting talking, he asked me a question and said " ( Read more... )

I'm so full of rage right now ( Read more... )

Denis got into Waterloo to do his Masters. He's there right now. The school flew him out to see it. I've been texting him, and he's been telling me how he's been loving every single minute of it. I'm really happy for him, but I'm kind of jealous at the same time. I'm jealous he gets to move there soon and I still have to be here. So many ( Read more... )

One day last term Denis asked me if I actually like math. He says I complain about it all the time, so it's hard to tell if I actually like it. I've found myself wondering lately. It's barely 2 weeks into this term and I really can't wait for it to be over. I'm just not interested in any of my classes (except 1, game theory you are making my ( Read more... )

I'm getting really sick of people judging my relationship ( Read more... )

I work at superstore. I've made some of my best Halifax friends there. But like any retail type job, the turn over is huge. In addition to that, a lot of people that I used to be friends with have changed (or I have changed, or we both have) and they've become someone intolerable. One guy became an engineer and thus boy poison and has slowly ( Read more... )