i would post the polaroids from parisa's basement, but... i don't want to embarrass anyone. (namely, myself)

-talking about men over spice tea and tobacco
-partially stalking ex lovers
-making summer plans in december
-revisiting the "(un)usual"

this just feels so right.
2008 should be here now.

one boy, one girl. he claims to thrive as a hermit while she adamantly expresses her dependency on him. one fills the others time. he pours himself into her, filling the void of loneliness she has become so accustom to. the girl can never be quite sure whether she is using the boy for sexual satisfaction, or rather, emotional security, of which ( Read more... )

i keep thinking about how much i don't want to go back to maryland. it's so lonely, "etc, etc...".

same shit.

i want to bring my piano back with me after christmas, so i can have it in my new apartment. i want to start playing again. it's been too long.

what if i made a promise to myself to take at least one picture a day? it doesn't have to be a picture of anything special, maybe it could be something as simple as a picture of the bare trees by my apartment. i need to have some way of remembering where i am in my life at this moment. i want proof that these days are really going by, that the ( Read more... )

i am in the process of making a list of places/things i would like to see.

suggestions?

(anything, anywhere really)

no one likes me unless they're wasted... or i'm wasted. hahahaha, what the fuck ( Read more... )

question: would people actually take me seriously if i looked different?

answer: of course

it's kindof ironic how all through my middle school/high school career i would have killed for someone to tell me "you're hot" and now all i want them to say is "you're a neat person".

i'm not feeling anything lately.  i constantly think of things i want to do, but never get around to actually doing them, just no motivation.  i hate whatever sort of "relationship" i am in right now.  jacob can be downright mean sometimes.  we got in a fight last night.  he told me that a lot of things about me "frustrate" him, but said he wouldn' ( Read more... )

oh my god. last night i tried this sushi, but it was fried and... it tasted just like chicken. i was in heaven! other than that, i have been super busy with work, and my feet never stop hurting. i was speaking with some of the stylists and they told me that since they started working their feet have gotten bigger. this scares me! one girl ( Read more... )