ya well i feel about the worst i ever have , but at the same time im relieved to hear the truth , well im not gona hold it back , i just got dumped , of course it feels liek shit and i really cant compare it to any hurt ive ever felt before , but id rather hear the truth and deal with it then be lied to and bullshited , i still love her i guess i ( Read more... )

woo i know i just posted but i decided to go read all my long ago posts and i dont remember half the shit i talked about it doesnt even sound like me sometimes it makes me beileve i have worse split personalities then im told.

well todays been off and on good , was just 3 people at work again i didnt know any of em tho so was weird , but while i was working with them they talked a lot about theyre problems and i talked to them about them and gave them some advice and i learned some things from them so i probly got more out of them then they got from me , but i feel like ( Read more... )

well in all i didnt want to wake up this morning and i did , i got to work and found out no management was going to be there and 2 people called in sick so ryan , matt , and me was basicly the crew today we got to the office , and well lets say we worked hard=lie , first we had a staple gun war , then we went toilet bowl fishing , then we shot ( Read more... )

sposda be resting but im boed , just got home from the hospital , lost a lot of blood and feel really dizzy still they told me to go home and rest so ya im not doing it , sitting at home bored call me , like now , yes you , do it.

well i cant sleep still gota go to work in a few hours maybee typing will make me tired , my new job is nice , will be nicer when i get usta waking up early , i was really happy for the last few days i thought i was garenteed to see jakki this friday but she might still be grounded , i havent seen her since 2 sundays ago , and theese last 2 weeks ( Read more... )

5 job applications in , im seriously gona drive my car off a cliff if i dont get a job.

for once , im quite alright. thanks to well , you know who.

just got off eq , its losts its fun all of a sudden , i feel dull and dead on the inside , maybee a foreshadow of things to come , i dont know what i want anymore , i just feel lost and alone , do i wish bad things on myself or do they just happen. dont know what i want to do i always feel scared when this happens because i have dreams about it and ( Read more... )

well just got home , saw "Hitch" today was a very good movie. then when back to seans house and his comp fucked up and when i tried to tell him what to do and what not to do he starts yelling and asking me to shut up or leave so i left , all he does is put me down when i try to help him , hes a cool guy and all but i dont want to feel like shit ( Read more... )