I guess a  few things have changed since I last spoke with yall. Ive got a job tht Ive been working t for  few months, I got a tattoo which I think is gorgeous. I got a boyfriend who both of us think we are soulmates. Its sweet and I like life atm. I got new pics.. so Im just pretty much posting these heh
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The moonlight is like climaxing a million times over, so beautiful but yet so dull. Like its wanting to reach out to touch something, but it being beyond grasp. Like the flowers in the pouring rain, slowly petals being torn from stems one by one, like the feeling of heartache. But a new rain comes and restores its natural beauty, like its brand ( Read more... )

There hasnt been alot going on here, mostly boredom and alot of work. Im getting a car this weekend. I found out how David really is. I dont know really what I can say about him anymore, thinking he wasnt like the rest of the guys in this world. *rolls eyes* Im watching seaseme street and listing to sting. Lol. I havent watched this in forever. i ( Read more... )

the begining, the end. Have you ever wondered what it would feel like to die on the day you were born. slowly falling apart, I am. Im so cold. I went to bed this morning at 6 drunk off my ass. I recieved 2 dozen roses and ballons from amy and carnations and ballons from Courtney, around sometime last night, before 12 o clock midnight. rushed my ( Read more... )

I put way the pictures, I try and fade away my past ( Read more... )

Lonley feelings, scattering into thoughts ( Read more... )

I can barely breathe. Its like its sufficating me, my breath. I can't stand this anymore. Im to stressed out and its complicated. More complicated then I realize. I want to make it all go away, the voices, screaming, yelling, constantly reminding me how useless, worthless and little I am. I just can't take anymore.The pill bottle seems so ( Read more... )

Amy is my best friend. She is the greatest friend I have ever had in my life. =).
my goals--->

1. Get my Birth cirtificate.
2. enroll in either, a ged program or OPH for jump start.
3. Get my liscence.
4. Budget money for the apartment.
5. get earlier hours at work.
6. start saving money for a new car.

Everything happends. In a blink of an eye your life can change, for the better or worse. I hate it. The way I look at him, and his words say something totatly different than his eyes fortell. To know that you care about someone so much, that can give two shits. GET OVER IT IM NOT HERE TO HURT YOU. Love sucks. I just want you to be my friend.. ( Read more... )

If I ever met people if my life would have ended up this way. You know, Hateful. Uncareing, bitch that I am to most people. I have all these thoughts rummaging through this thick head of mine. I mean, I know there is some things that have happend in my life that have made me who I am today. Theres shit I cant really do about some of them. Like the ( Read more... )