James asked me to cut my hair on myspace so I did, just how he wanted it. And he loves it. And that makes me happy, even though I feel like I look silly. :)

Anyway, here I am:


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Another meeeeeting...
Today's topic was "entirely ready." Ready to beat addiction and ready to change your character defects.

My character defects...hmmm...what do they entail?

Let's make a list :D:

• overanalyzing and intellectualizing
  
• justiying/circumstancial ethics
  
• accepting/gratifying my rape obsession
  

That's all I can think of! Wanna ( Read more... )

Another good AA meetin'! ^_ ( Read more... )

GREAT meeting tonight! GREAT people! GREAT friends!

Irma was there tonight. So was Allen (the heroin addict I met the first night I went). They knew each other. We all talked. It was fun.

I love my meetings!! I love having people in my life who understand!

Speaking of which, only 7 months till I'm 18 in 5 months! That's so quick! Holy shit. I cam't ( Read more... )

Today was a day.

I didn't sleep much last night. I don't know if it was the 2 cups of coffee I drank at the meeting or some random spurt of mania but I only slept for 2 - maybe 3 - hours.

I've found quite often that sleep is essential to good mental health. Today was a good example of that.

I started the morning off wrong by talking about Marla's ( Read more... )

I went to another AA meeting. I really like them. I like how accepting people are of me. I'm not used to that. It's nice. :)

I always come out of those meetings feeling really good about myself and my addiction, really talkative and content. I like that feeling; I like feeling like a normal, mentally healthy person.

Today's topic was "True ( Read more... )

Every once in awhile I'm reminded that I can say or do anything and the only thing that gets in my way is circumstances, and even those obstacles are so insignifigant and fleetingly temporary that they don't really count...

How many days do I sit around, allowing intangibles to thwart my existence?
In other words, how often do I let laws and rules ( Read more... )

Today I made my multiple personality, James, a Myspace. XD  http://www.myspace.com/80702815

AND my stupid novel is now a journal account.
I mean, it was already before but now I've updated it, changing it to the newer, more "improved" story. :)

You don't have to add it as a friend to read it.

Feel free to comment; compliment or critisize. I know I'm ( Read more... )

But things are changing ( Read more... )

So I had decided to volunteer at my local hospital to get some work to put on my resume and some job experiance to lessen my social anxiety and increase my self-confidence ( Read more... )