I think I know whats different this time. everyone always asks me that and I think I figured it out finally. This time, with Jeffrey, its really a relationship. Before it was always a party hook-up that just never ended and went on for years. I mean it wasnt suppose to last, I never got to know them it just kind of happened and then things got ( Read more... )

sometimes I wonder how I ended up right here. Looking back the road looks like a movie to me. I have been told that I can do a creepy amount of disassociation to my past. Whatever, life's crazy and you deal with it. All I know is that I want to be sleeping next to jeffrey having him hold me tight while we look up at the stars. Then I can pretend ( Read more... )

In 2007 I ( Read more... )

being at my parents house has been an utterly bizare experience so far this week. as I look around I realize this is no longer my home and in fact it hasnt been for quite some time now. somewhere between gainsville, florida and new orleans I said I just wanted to give up and go home, but where is home. a house in florida with four other grown men, ( Read more... )

I promise I am the happiest I have been in a long long time but ( Read more... )

last summer all I could think about was how there was just one thing missing in my life. I thought I had everything I needed to be happy, a paycheck, a roof over my head, money for dope and beer, friends that knew me better than I knew myself. all I wanted was that one person to love me and hold me ( Read more... )

gifts are always very nice but instead I would rather give and receive advice ... and be able to follow that advice. things like how to manage money so that I am not trying to feed to people with five bucks all week, or how to be motivated to clean a house containing five girls and one boy, or to show someone how to embrace the little moments like ( Read more... )

umm so ya no internet at my place so here is the fastest way to do it ( Read more... )

soooo.... I moved into my own house this week and it is amazing, I no longer have internet access except when I visit my parents house. I want you all to know you are welcome all the time....especially my camp friends come visit me between terms!!!! and I mean that!!

I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF ALL MY BEST FRIENDS BEING MAD AT ME

I dont know exactly ( Read more... )

so life ( Read more... )