Two weeks after my mother died, I found myself sitting in opera class, still feeling shell-shocked. It was a Friday, which meant that Buckman was teaching acting rather than our usual technique focused singing class. Buchmman had always treated me badly. He made it very clear that he didn't like me as an artist. He ripped me a new asshole every ( Read more... )

It had been two years since I had sung in public, and I was on the verge of panic. The virus that had attacked and paralyzed my vocal cord in the middle of my sophomore year of music school still caused unpredictable cracking, but that wasn't the reason for my drained confidence ( Read more... )

Her skin was colder than usual, but it was still just as soft. My mother had always had the softest skin. This was one of the only things about her body that hadn't changed in the past few months. Her once beautiful face had aged decades. Her body, of which I had always been envious, had wasted away. Every bone was now visible. The whites of her ( Read more... )

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Bullies were born and bred to terrorize kids like me. When one thinks of a typical bully, they think of a snarling budnick of a boy, slamming the small kid up against the lockers. I would have loved it if that was the only kind of bully I had been forced to deal with. The worst torture didn't come from a big muscular boy, or any boy. It was the ( Read more... )

My acceptance letter to New England Conservatory felt like the beginning of my dream. I had never wanted to be anything other than a singer, and NEC was supposedly one of the best schools in the country to learn how to do it right. I wanted to sing opera not so much because it was the music I loved the most, but because it was the hardest to ( Read more... )

It's pretty hard to sit down and tell you all who I am, because I find that I don't really know myself. Part of the reason I want to do LJ Idol is to try to figure out some direction. This feeling of not knowing where I'm headed is very new to me ( Read more... )

I just wanted to write a quick introduction post, since I've gained 40-some new friends in the last day or so. This journal is one I'll be using only for LJ-idol. If you ever feel the urge to read my day-to-day journal, it's over at seasongsI'm a 24-year-old recent college grad. My degree is in opera performance. I love music, but I have come to the ( Read more... )

This is my declaration of intention to participate in LJ Idol Season 6! This is all new to me, but I'm looking forward to finding some motivation to write. This is a journal created just for LJ Idol. If you'd like to find my personal journal, I'm over at seasongs. Feel free to drop me a friend request!