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My first appointment
I was with one of the new guys at the Laurels. It was an hour long. I expected to have to reharsh much of the stuff that I'd rehashed in previous appointments about why I think I'm trans. I was expecting to have to rehash traumatic stuff and feel rather shit at the end of it ( Read more... ) -
Sometimes I feel like a fraud
Everytime I put my old name down, or sign that name, everytime I allow someone I know fairly well to call me my old name because they don't know better, everytime I walk into the women's loos at work - I feel like a fraud. I am not that person, and I am not a woman, and to keep passing myself off as one feels wrong ( Read more... ) -
I was warned that the clinic suck at admin . . .
So today I have a routine check up with my GP about my anti-depressants. And I get there and she asks me whether I'm excited about my appointment on friday. Guh? She had on my notes a scan of a letter from the clinic saying that I have an appointment on friday. News to me, I haven't had this letter from them. I copy the details of the letter down. ( Read more... ) -
Everything still on hold
Still working through all the life stuff so transition still on hold ( Read more... ) -
NEWS FLASH
My new cheque book and bank card have arrived!! In my new name!!
Must sort out legal copies of deedpoll so can get driving licence changed in a couple of weeks (once moved). Actually will then need to start working through that list of places I need to change my name with. -
That post from yesterday
So I had one of our managers come up to me on the office floor to talk. This isn't as much of an issue as it sounds because it's very possible to be very discreet on our office floor. Most people are on the phone and very involved in their work, a couple of metres away and yet a million miles. Just setting the scene ( Read more... ) -
this post is here to remind me
that I need to blog about today. Alas I have run out of time to do so today. So please me remind that I need to write about it. Because there was a pretty big moment today and it kind of got overshadowed. -
Changing my name with places, Part 2 - work
So umm well yes. So I've carefully held onto the piece of paper needing my most uptodate personal details. And feeling a need to be brave earlier today I filled it in before my one-to-one with my new name and title.
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The dysphoria - it comes in waves
So after a rather chipper start to yesterday, my mental health rather went downhill to the point where I wasn't fully functioning. I knew it was the dysphoria in particular when I *really* started to wibble at the thought of getting naked to shower ( Read more... ) -
Changing my name with places, Part 1
So today I walked into town to see my bank. HBSC. They were awesome about it. The staff not only professional but friendly. The woman who actually completed their paperwork with me in a way that was not only friendly but very respectful. We chatted about picking names, fitting names on forms and the uselessness of the NHS to get anything done ( Read more... )