It hits me in spurts. Guess, im doing better than i was before. Sure, the drinking took over for awhile but my health stopped it but damn do i want a drink. Uncle Sam said it better:

It took me a minute to wake up and see
What the love of my life was doing to meThinking of the two of them together gets me sick. Maybe, in the end i deserved it... ( Read more... )

i've come to realize that maybe i drink a lil too much ( Read more... )

hey, it's me. im pretty drunk at the moment. ehhe i had 1 12 bottles of wine & um a bacardi soething! oh wallow. im kinda sad. i can only tell eric how i truly feel when im drunk and i don't even cry. i laugh it all off while im telling him my true feelings. i feel that is the only time we can tlk and the only time he can't yellt at me for being s ( Read more... )

I always thought that I was enough for him, I guess I was wrong. So it's finally hit me. I tried so hard these past 2 weeks to put back some sort of normalcy back in my life. What was she giving him that I wasn't? She is 17 years old, a junior in high school... im a junior in college! How could he continue seeing her for however long they were ( Read more... )

lately, i've been wondering what i've done to deserve all this. it's not like i've never gone through this before... i just didn't want to go through it again. there are talks of starting clean, but is it possible to really let all the things done to you go so easily? i really wish it was that easy, to be able to erase all the things that hurt you ( Read more... )

yeah, it sucks not having him around ( Read more... )

You're plan is useless ( Read more... )

I haven't fallen into being depressed but I have fallen into something. It's hard to explain. I'm not as emotional as I thought I would be. It's confusing, or maybe I just have this odd need to confuse&frustrate myself? When I give myself the time to think about the situation, I look at at the both of us, I look at us seperately, & I swear I have ( Read more... )

Shit. Worse hangover EVER! Last night was um weird... too much of everything. I quadruple fisted, is that possible? Well, I have pictures. I got pretty tank last night, maybe, not the best thing to do. I miss Eric. He called this morning to check on me. We'll be okay, I know we will it's just gonna take some time for the both of us to get better. ( Read more... )

I really want school to start! I'm going insane! Having all this time is making me think, thinking way too much about things & that doesn't do me any good. I guess I am boring. OMG someone save ( Read more... )