it makes me sad when i realize that the difficult things i dealt with before still go on, it's just that i'm no longer in the situation where i'm forced to deal with them ( Read more... )

am trying to be more focused and aware of my surroundings. i think i'm gonna disappear for a while ( Read more... )

today was alright. i have bob, so physical unease ( Read more... )

this has been a lousy week. i feel sad and lonely and worried and tired. for some reason i feel incapable of really basic things, which i think is just a consequence of being in a depressed mood. hope things pick up.

my business classes make me really concerned about the power and absence of moral integrity that characterize big businesses. the way that we study and are taught about cases, and the speakers who come in to lecture to our classes, really blatantly disregard the questionable ethics in strategically successful decisions. no one in my classes cares ( Read more... )

god you play me a rotten hand.

got a lot to cover but i'm just gonna skip it. today came like a ghost of the past. i hate these cycles, it convinces you you're going nowhere.

but i feel kind of lonely all the time. even while i'm with a lot of people and hanging out and talking. i feel like i don't talk to the people i want to enough, so i try to keep in contact with everyone, but even as we're talking i feel like there's a distance that i'm not bridging ( Read more... )

i am happy today. i am going to graduate on time and gonna see my sister this weekend and maybe go hiking with chris and lots of plans lined up the next month! r who is in one of my classes this semester is super cute and i am totally going to be poised and not tongue-tied and approach him like a normal person. haha, who am i kidding. oh well, i ( Read more... )

so i think it's a funny thing. my sister and j's split was just so much proof of how unpredictable life is, and how hard it is to ever really know another person, and just kind of reinforces that attitude i've always had that i need to be complete and independent as a person, and how much my aversion to people in general stems from the fact that i' ( Read more... )

everybody's gotta help everybody out. i feel slightly less stressed out, and like, thoughtful but not overly focused after going to j's yesterday. i met with a tfa person in the morning. and the idea's kind of growing on me. i kind of hope i get in. i kinda think i'd really like it. but i'm not sure. a lot depends on where you go too. we'll see ( Read more... )