it's 21 hours and 5 minutes until i can start crawling in my scuffed sneakers to her.  some place i've never been to.  some place i have no business being.  if i could be there for 2 hours right now i would.  i've nothing to offer except long stares and stupid tears.  this song has me in pieces because it knows how to pick me apart like a good ( Read more... )

so i had cameron diaz out for drinks last night.  got her a single shot, grande, 2 raw sugar, whole milk latte.  she said the word, "EXCELLANTE!"

to answer your question, yes, i did get her digitz. 

everybody watch the movie 'ssssssss'

another morning ( Read more... )

feeling very drained from 4 day long meth binge.  hearing muffled arguments bouncing off taupe walls and tan carpet.  chest cough.  fragmented sleep througout the day.  bought a new/old suitcase.  going to austin tonight.  i'm here 'til the 4th.  not looking forward to going back.  i may have to kick a roomate out.  such uneccessary stress is a ( Read more... )

when we dance
with abandon 
out of grace into night
like broken saints 
built to fall

when we sleep
i like to breathe 
together in our stale air
because it tastes better 
than a cigarette 
at the gallows

when you lay
near my bones
skin slight as a ghost
i can't touch you
but i can feel you
through the tacit movements
of ten million, tiny blows

when we wake up
it's a ( Read more... )

everyday's an excercise
in letting fingers lose
a little static element
acting like an elephant
snagged on a parting moon

everyday's a new excuse
to let a yesterday slide
to steal some jesus thunder
right out from under
some train wreck's remains

and everyone's just on the run
like a marathon
for the orphaned and unloved
fugitives futureless
stealing their wings ( Read more... )

 play it cool play it cool play it cool

i'm used to being the least serious, the most puzzling, and the most seriously puzzled.  i like to hear people break.  not in a hurtful way but an honest way.  the statement that organically cracks their defenses and leads them to say something revealing.  it could be some stupid factoid, an embarassing story ( Read more... )

it's white-out weather up here.  funny it happens today.  i just happened to leave my good jacket at work so i was walking in the blizzard with just a peacoat earlier to retrieve my gear.  called my dad today.  i think he probably psyches himself into ultra negativity mode whenever he sees it my number calling him.  what a sourpuss.  looks like i' ( Read more... )

one week left.  craaaaaazy.

grave crushing happening.

sleek thief sleepy green eyes bright and big you seem right at home in your own skin. 
do you live in a hotel in the city or a castle in my mind?

what's your middle name?  your father sounds really funny. how do you get on with your parents?  so you have ___ brothers/sisters? only child, eh? so ( Read more... )