Nobody will care, or see this anyway, nobody visits this page anymore. So much I want to get off my chest, so I might as well do it here, where no onewill see ( Read more... )

Well I'm alive, not very much alive mind you, but alive enough to know I'm tired ( Read more... )

Lea: Ignore for 4 days, or until friday. When friday comes along, unblock or reply to any e-mails/msgs on nexopia. See how commited she is as lately she has been blah ( Read more... )

Seriously... 2nd serious cold, and 2nd injury this month alone plus the b;ack belt test I have now dropped out of. Yes I can persevere, but only to a limit. When i can't walk on 1 leg, when it can't straighten normally and it hurts like hell just to straighten it. When I can't sit in a chair properly anymore or be comfy anywhere without some kind ( Read more... )

I am so torn. I have a choice. I can... guilt her, and show her that she shouldn't see him, that everything will change, and nothing she'd want with me could ever happen, but maybe it's better so she can have a guy there and be more... normal. Maybe he'd be better at supporting her. She seems to think he would support her pretty well, keep her form ( Read more... )

Lets see... no real sleep, tired as all hell, and I have a math test. I'm goign to talk to schwartz, see if i can just get him to help me today and do the test tomorrow or something. I got an e-mail back from A channel ya!! They told me it was tomorrow, to bad they sent it about 4 hours after I had already checked if they were there or not, and ( Read more... )

That Incomplete feeling seem to follow me around everywhere I go now... Luaghing with lucy, teaching Angela and Julianna, Laughing with Mrs. G. That somehting is missing... maybe that confidence I had in life and myself... I was so sure of myself in martial arts and now it's been thrown into question whether or not I am good enough. Or is it the ( Read more... )

Yes, my life is coming into place, and yet... that feeling of loss, or betrayal is not far behind. Like... Ominous feeling that bad things are about to begin to happen. Since yesterday, and the crap the grade 11's did, and just the mounting problems in math and algebra, and random stuff happening... I've begin to think pessimistically. SO much has ( Read more... )

7 years of martial arts ( Read more... )

Sigh... It's true, It's true, I find myself.. fluctuating between persona's. Strange as it is, I am like... 4 people, even though it's not really possible, just persona wise. Not Multiple Personality disorder!! I mean like... Different people i act differently, though I talk to people like Lea who say I need to act like myself. What if this is ( Read more... )