I didn't get to see Jeff Saturday :( Nessa beat Jeff's Dad in calling in to set up visits so there was only room for 1 other person & he figured Kayla (Jeff's Niece) should go because she sat out last him so him & I could visit Jeff ( Read more... )

I don't go more then 3 days without smoking a 30. I don't remember the last time I went that long anyways. When did I even start smoking them?! Must been going on 2 months now or longer? Crazy.. I still don't think I'm addicted. I do get depressed if I don't have one because I look forward to my nightly ritual of smoking 1. I survive though if I ( Read more... )

I applied at the new strip club today. Diamonds <3 Walking in there was like Diva's all over again except the whole place is torn apart being remodeled so it didn't look like the Diva's I left behind but still.. I have an interview Monday after 3pm. If I can't be a dancer then I would be a cocktail server. So we shall see ( Read more... )

Mom is weird the last few days. About money and oddly about me taking k cups for my apartment. I seriously only took 3 of each flavor. She buys in bulk so there are 18 to 24 in a pack depending on the brand so god forbid I take 3 of each flavor. She doesn't want my "friends" wasting it. I told her I hardly have anyone over, I drink the god damn ( Read more... )

Cop called yesterday and said Jeff claims I let him in and told him to return the rat food so we could score a couple 30's. And same for the gift cards. I told the cop no I definitely didn't ask him to do that. The cop me doing drugs did not matter & had nothing to do with the case. I told him I wasn't going to say I had never done drugs, but I ( Read more... )

He robbed a hotel at gun point.. He's in jail now ( Read more... )

Wednesday night I stayed with Erik. The guy I met at Diva's that I dated from like May until July. The one I didn't take seriously as my boyfriend but pretended & played it up good when I had to. Anyways we had been talking about getting together for awhile now but never actually acted on it until Wednesday. I was really excited! He had 2 p15's and ( Read more... )

My checks haven't been close to $200 lately. It's getting hard to survive. Mom gave me $40 so if I can't find rides to work tomorrow & Sunday morning then I have cab money. I really just want to spend it on drugs & figure out another way to get to work. I'm terrible ( Read more... )

He hasn't changed but that is ok. I bought 3 30's and smoked them all last night. I was soooo rocked I'd thought I'd puke. Had hot sex with him though. My little junkie <3 I'll always love him no matter how badly he fucks me over & hurts me. It is what it is ( Read more... )

I post about not hearing from him & Jeff just called me. He's coming over to say hi or so he claims. Whatever though... I told ya I always let him win. :)