She died the next morning at 4am. I was told at 6:30am when I called my mom once waking up to get ready for work. The family is fighting. I wanted the funeral right off. It's not until fucking mid november. No one cared what worked best for my mom and I's schedule. It was what worked best for everyone else not us. Now my Aunt told my Grandmother I ( Read more... )

My Great Grandmother is in the hospital and they say she will go anytime now. I couldn't bring myself to go up and see her. We all did a family dinner about a week ago over at her place and even seeing her then was sad. She was weak, in pain, unhappy. Slow. Sad. It wasn't a sight I want to remember her in last.. Yet now she's in a hospital unable ( Read more... )

It's never a nice guy I'll fall for. It's someone who will end up making me want to pull out my hair and keep asking myself "why do I let you make me feel this way time and time again?" I think I just want to feel alive.. and by being made to feel so confused and unsure and upset.. it really speaks to me ( Read more... )

The 13th Matthew called me late. He seemed very different then usual. The fact he even called me was strange. He went on to tell me over and over he loved me. He'd never hurt me. He wanted to be with me forever. He moved back for me. I asked if he was on drugs and he said no. I should of asked if he was drunk. If he was drinking and had taken ( Read more... )

Matt had a post on facebook about having a bad anxiety attack so I commented it saying I had something for him ( Read more... )

I decided to give up on Matthew. He either ditches me when we have plans to hang out lying saying he will come then never following through or he just avoids my texts or messages about possible plans for us to hang out. He had a post on facebook a few days ago something like "let me start off saying I am only attracted to girls. I need to settle a ( Read more... )

It's been raining for days. Makes me want to sleep away my life. Makes going to work reallllly lame. Work hasn't been too bad lately though. Just been making beds. Haven't been in the laundry room in forever it seems. Wondering where they will put me tomorrow? I hope we get out early! I am already dreading my shift ( Read more... )

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House keeping is a job. It's not the best but it's something. My friend Tim who got me the job there said my boss was telling him how good I am doing and they are happy to have me as part of the team. I try hard but its frustrating at times. I'm just making beds and they have to be perfect. It's a lot of work. You never get to sit down. I like that ( Read more... )

Well I got the housekeeping job at the Sheraton. Full time is considered 32 hours a week but they can ask you to do overtime. I only get $7.50 to start out with. Get raises after 3 months of working there but they only give out raises twice a year so it may take me awhile to qualify. I start Saturday. Gotta be there by 8:30am to start work at 9am. ( Read more... )