John is heading back to Afghanistan.
Again. Again.

No longer Oh Dubious One. We're good right away. Just like we were. The party was fantastic, starting off with a beer, then moving on to a Bacardi and Red Bull, then 2 "shots" of Bacardi and Coke because we were playing "beer" pong with Bacardi. I would've had more if I hadn't nailed the other team during pong. :))) I still have His shirt in my ( Read more... )

Havn't talked to Oh Dubious One today. I call him this because I ended the converaton sounding like an idiot. Which I am. But only because he didn't ever respond back. I'm an idiot for bringing up his girlfriend. Ohh, the idiocracy. I'm getting over it pretty quickly though so that's a good sign ( Read more... )

I feel like I took the plunge into hell and closed my eyes. I knew it was bad but I couldn't see the obvious outcome. When do i get to be the happy one? I need to get out of this city.

Since I'm clearing out a lot of things from my room, my bookcase is falling apart, and I want to get rid of my bed frame, I've been looking for decent bookcases to use as the head of my bed so I can still put my CD player there and stuff. I can't wair for the clutter to be all gone from my room. But now I'm off to finish clearing out my closet.

I'm hoping that a theoretical new beginning will clear my mind a bit adn make way for some new thoughts. Unfortunately, all I can think about is my camera ( Read more... )

STARTING OVER

I'm compiling material to write a short story. It's going slowly but steadily. I havn't started writing.

I woke up in a spotlight
And dew rested and relaxed on my arms and bare legs.
When I saw you in the distance, I followed slowly
Feet sauntering across paper grass
that bends and folds underfoot.
But rain dropped from the white cotton sky
Spitting bulllets so
I jumped the gun and took off into the abyss
I ran until daylight
And rested under your

I had a dream last night. It was sort of about one person but was scattered. And I had a dream within a dream that involved me having a dream and then waking up, seeing a person I havn't seen in a year and a half, and telling him I had a dream that I had a knife to his throat (I was a secret agent- he was the enemy lol). For some reason he found ( Read more... )