for all the times i tried to find the reasons
why and i found you instead..

new and exciting things need to start happening..

I want to be the happiest I could possibly be. I know that is ridiculously unrealistic considering my life is great as is, but I want that something else because it hasn't been there in so long. I'm completely aware that I think too much and judge too quickly, I'm so afraid of being hurt or lied to that I push everything good away in fear that ( Read more... )

life is so wonderful right now. i just have to work on a few things. and i'm a little nervous to see how a few things play out.... happy new year!!!!!!!!

couldn't have started the new year off in any better way. soo good. happy 2009!

i'm so in love with my friends, it's disgusting. I have the mosst amazing friends in the universe that have done nothing but make my birthday wonderful! (both last night, today, and my suprise party). i don't know what i'd do without them. I'M 18! I CAN BUY PORN, INFOMERCIALS, LOTTERY TICKETS, CIGS IN NY, PED-EGGS..... cool! hahaha

So when is that time going to come when you realize that it may just be you, not only every single one of your friends that cared about you more than anything. The friends that were there when no one else was, and for the most part, were completely honest with you. And on her part, she only held back to keep everyone happy and you know that. I just ( Read more... )

I see signs now all the time
That you're not dead, you're sleeping
I believe in anything
That brings you back home to me

The worst feeling in the world is regret. I never used to have regret, but i guess its one of those things you realize more once you're older because you have more things to be worrying about. I wish I could change things, the way and acted and the person i was around you. I'm constantly putting up a front that pushes people away and at the end of ( Read more... )

UGGGH this is so frustrating