i'm free, but i'll never give up my obsessive profile checking ways.

this is the most recent version:

just give me a scene
where the music is key
and the beer is the life of the party

wtf?

his car was near mine. i took out the seashells we had collected on the beach when i drove through a hurricane to see him. they hadn't been moved from my car where he had first left them, to remind me of that day. one broke and i arranged its remains on the hood of his car, and piled the rest of them there. when i came back his car was replaced ( Read more... )

sometimes i'll be minding my own business and for no reason i'll get hit with a memory. lately, it's been memories of little things about certain people that i had been trying not to think about at all. memories that i had completely forgotten ( Read more... )

he spoke to me.

snuck up on me in lil's and called me out.
there was nowhere to hide.

i couldnt pretend i didnt hear him. i couldnt pretend he didnt exist anymore.

i wish i had been colder. i wish i had been cooler. i wish i had looked better. he made me talk to him and then i wanted to run away and hide. but i didn't.

the nerve.

1. respond with something random about me.
2. tell me what song/movie reminds you of me.
3. pick a color that associates with me.
4. tell me something you like about me.
5. tell me your first/clearest memory of me.
6. tell me what animal i remind you of.
7. ask me something that you've always wanted to ask.

i feel like i just hit a brick wall.

ugh.

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even after a truly good weekend, i still can't seem to shake this feeling of loneliness ( Read more... )

today i had a close encounter (which despite all my careful planning caught me by surprise), but enough to remind me that it's only been a week and a half (although it's felt like forever ( Read more... )

i've come to the conclusion that the reason i'm so ashamed of my recent misery is because no one (save for one person who is 600 miles away) has even acknowledged the fact that i've been so upset for the past week ( Read more... )