today is a year since september 8, 2007.
today is a first of many years
with my spencer.

i love him.

i'm tired of being the one who does everything.
i'm tired of having to make the call.
i'm tired of having to start the text convo.
i'm tired of thinking i'm a bad friend.
i'm tired of feeling like i'm a bad friend.

all of my friends make me feel this way.
except for sarah when she was in town.

spencer makes me feel this way when we're arguing.
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i hate to fight with sam.
i hate that we are fighting right now.
i hate that i am such a jerk.
and that sam is a jerk back.
i just want to be forgiven,
but i guess i was asking for it.

lame night #2

my eyez still hurt.
sarah's coming home.
kelly's coming home.
I'M stoked.

i can't wait to get my camera charger and ps2 back.
i hope spencer doesn't go blind,
and that christmas this year is amazing.

i wish two specific people were still in my life,
and that my stomach would stop growling.

today sucked.
AND it made me HATE christmas.

i hate being sick.
but it might not be THAT bad..
least spencey gives me hella attn.

=]

and i was crushed. ^-^

work sucked tonight.
fuck work.

spencer ruled today.
fuck spencer.

lol.
j/k.

hey, let's smoke weed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this thanksgiving i was thankful for my boyfriend, sam mcdonald, my mother, and beers
...but not my fat stummy!

i wish everyone knew as i well as i do that you can't just say you love somebody. you have to actually show that you do. you have to show it everyday no matter what the situation is or how bad you don't want the word l-o-v-e to even be in existance. love is faithful and kind. therefore, you must BE faithful and kind.

not just say that you are.