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Title: Conceptions of the Self - also on FF.Net
Genre: General, Drama
Rating: R - for PTSD, 'gross' nightmares, body horror, and all those fun things
Disclaimer: I do not own Transformers, or the 2007 movie, or any variation thereof, nor is any profit being made (except the profit which is my own inflated ego). Liberties have been taken with the common laws of physics, culture, language, history, and all that good stuff.
Warnings: Cybertronian!Sam, genderless!robots
+ SUMMARY: [2007, AU] Sore throats, nightmares, and the differences between organics and Cybertronians - something is terribly wrong with Sam. To live is to evolve, and shape alone is not enough; think of it as a mutual learning experience. (Bot!Sam, PTSD, Mech/mech)
Notes:
- Sam is featured as what some might know as an Unreliable Narrator.
- SLOW STORY IS SLOW. Then I distract you with characters.
- There is an abundance of badly written action sequences. Sorry.
- Sam and Bumblebee as a pairing. Eventually. I swear!
- Other Bot!Humans in the works.
- This work pretty much AU's off from the exact moment Megatron offlines in the movie. Revenge of the Fallen as a plotline doesn't fit anywhere, whereas some elements of RotF do apply, such as characters and certain artifacts.
- Optimus Prime is a Prick. This was only reinforced by RotF GIVE-ME-YOUR-FACE!Prime. Oh god, a mei loev GMYF!Prime. :'D
Table of Contents
ALSO LOCATED ON FF.NET: Conceptions of the Self
Chapter One: The Aftermath
- - Quote: "I want," he said softly to avoid aggitating his throat, but the words still scraped and grated like broken glass or twisting metal, "to see my car."
- - In which Sam Witwicky rejoins his family and friends, and a few things come to light.
Chapter Two: Home Again
- - Quote: "Of course we don't download the internet. Your method of arranging and storing data is very space-consuming."
- - In which nightmares start, Sam gets back in contact with his friends.
- + Mikaela's Intermission: The Strangest Boy
- - Quote: It was 'my car' this and 'my car' that, from the moment she'd been pulled into the Camaro.
- - In which Mikaela has some thinking to do. FITS BETWEEN CHAPTERS TWO AND THREE
Chapter Three: Can't Relate
- - Quote: [Trent] was waiting right in the way for the parking lot with his shiny new blue Hummer, propped against it like he was the most awesome thing since awesome was awesome. Which he obviously wasn't, since Sam had met awesome and he came in yellow and black.
- - In which Sam and Mikaela decide where they stand, school is stupid, and Trent makes an appearance.
Chapter Four: Nightmares
- - Quote: Ninety-nine-point-nine-(et cetera, et cetera, for eternity) percent of the time, Sam would have rather taken on the Evil Cop Car and his spastic glitch buddy before he would have taken on Trent.
- - In which mei skips some time, we get an insight into Sam's nightmares, there is some weird Bee and Sam byplay, Sam and Trent have a 'disagreement', and Sam is just generally fragile all over.
- + Ratchet's Intermission: Worried About Bumblebee
- - Quote: Truth be told, he didn't even choose a side in this stupid war.
- - In which Rachet works while Ironhide worries. Wait ... Ironhide worries?!
Chapter Five: The Calm ...
- - Quote: And then his mind made the actual imagery involved, and his brain tried to short-circuit on the picture of a small yellow and black kitten.
- - In which Sam is in a Good Mood, there are more All Spark dreams, Mikaela talks about the future, and Miles and Sam gossip about her behind her back.
Chapter Six: ... Before ...
- - Quote: Of course, there was only so long that Sam was willing to ignore the fact that there was a strange Autobot in his driveway.
- - In which the first of the refugees shows up, there's more weird stuff going on, and Sam's Mother is too involved in his life.
Chapter Seven: ... the Storm
- - Quote: "And I'd be like a ... zombie. Skeleton. Animated Skeleton. But only in moonlight. You know, then your life would be really interesting -- giant alien robots and cursed pirate treasure and -- wereskeletons."
- - In which Sam sleeps in cars, there is drama in the Witwicky house, and the All Spark attacks Sam's sexuality directly for major damage!
- + Mikaela's Intermission 2: Fond of his Squishie
- - Quote:"Sam and Bumblebee ... are complicated."
- - In which Mikaela and Arcee gossip about Bumblebee and Sam. No, really.
Chapter Eight: Tempest
- - Quote: Bumblebee did manage to escape without injury, but not without playing the part of the car alarm that Sam was sure still meant 'up yours'.
- - In which Sam finally gives up and admits something is wrong, and the Autobots freak out.
- + Ratchet's Intermission 2: Prime is a Jerk
- - Quote: "-- and Primus have mercy on your sorry painted hide 'cause Bumblebee certainly won't!"
- - In which Ratchet deals with a medical-mechanical miracle and really wishes he didn't have to, Prime is a jerk, and Ironhide is a big softy. And they gossip. No chapter or intermission is complete without gossip.
Chapter Nine: Jacked Up
- - Quote: "... and by teenaged boy, I mean narrow-minded and too attached to his reproductive organs."
- - In which Sam has psychotic episodes, surgery is done, things are discovered and more Cybertronian history comes to light.
- + Prime's Intermission : The Reality of Hope
- - Quote: Sometimes he felt it was only himself that actually looked past the hope in the future and the possible reality. So far, he feared he was right.
- - In which Optimus Prime reflects on all that has happened and will happen, and he almost becomes aware of a reality of hope.
Chapter Ten: We all fall Down
- - Quote: It was an All Spark fragment, made of some strange metal that wasn't even like what the Cybertronians were made of, but the power of the All Spark was gone. Extinguished.
- - In which a lot of really bad things happen.
- + Ron's Intermission: The Witwicky Madness
- - Quote: He's never coming home. He's never -- even if he wanted to, he's never --
- - In which Ron get's his time in the spot light ... and whines. Crazily. Whoa.
- + Bumblebee's Intermission: The Hero Dies in this Scene
- - Quote: Though ... even if involuntary video recall was extremely unpleasant, it didn't stop him from accessing his memory banks often, anyway.
- - In which Bumblebee suffers a core matrix instability, hates to "dream", and remembers how his opinions changed and his understanding grew.
Chapter Eleven: Little Bot in the Big City
- - Quote: The fact remained that Sam was running across some very curious issues -- namely: the difference between 'possible' and 'Sam being able to do it'.
- - In which various terrifying things happen to Sam, and he is a woobie. See Sam woe. Woe, Sam. Woe.
Chapter Twelve: Out of the Frying Pan
- - Quote: Grudgingly, he 'started' his engine (or rather, he made a car noise ... which ... ha ha, was rather like a kid going 'vroom vroom', now that he thought about it)
- - In which various BAD things happen to Sam, just for variety. Also, Lamborghinis ... like nuclear fallout, in a way.
Chapter Thirteen: Into the Fire
- - Quote: Oh, sure, Carly might never step foot around another car judging by her hysterical crying as she ran away, pulled along by her boyfriend, but that might save her life one day ... if she ever ... you know, ran into a Decepticon.
- - Sam is helpful with Public Service Announcements for British youth. Also, cops chase him, not for the last time.
- + Jazz's Intermission: More than Sixty
- - Quote: On the first day, Primus said: let there be life -- and there was the Cube.
- - Jazz isn't the mech he used to be, but then again, neither is Bumblebee, and it all boils down to a little organic creature called 'Sam' and what he's become.
Chapter Fourteen: And a Bottle of Rum
- - Quote: Even now, they didn't seem to understand just how serious humanity could be about hunting aliens. Like witches ... only from outer space.
- - And some Sideswipe!PoV. I AM TIRED OF THE MOTHERBOARDING ROBOTS ON MY MOTHERBOARDING SHIP! >8(
Chapter Fifteen: On A Road With No Name
- - Quote: Today will be Prowly, with traces of emotion throughout the mission...
- - Moar Counterpart antics, then Enter teh Prowler! And Moar Autobots. And the NAIAS. And Sam get's a new Alt. Busy chapter was busy.
Chapter Sixteen: Witwicky Lives
- - Quote: "Prowl," he said sharply, "you and I are going to have a conversation about asking questions you don't really want to know the answer to. Soon."
- - Some Sambot and Sideswipe antics. Moar Prowl, moar Autobots, and then, Jazz finds them three days later.
Chapter Seventeen: It's a bildüngsroman, Samuel Witwicky!
- - Quote: Sam assumed that humanity had fucking ruined Wheeljack's day on account of not only being able to use radios and things, but also having a spoken language themselves.
- - In which Sam familiarizes himself with the other Autobots and massive amounts of SADFACE are had by the readers.
And some more-or-less technical notes -- o kk lol no not rly. Alt modes only. :B
Yes, I copypasta'd this from my FF.Net Profile. Because I am mad lazy liek whoa.
Canon bots as expected, except for RotF!bots, but if you read the story you'd know that. Sew, in order of appearance of noncanon bots:
Arcee = Mazda Miata
Elita-One = 2008 Jaguar XKR - not the prettiest car, but this review pretty much explains why I chose it. Classy.
Chromia = Hummer H3
Moonracer = 2008 Kawasaki Ninja ZX-10R, in Candy Plasma Blue
Sambot = Mini Cooper, then Dodge Circuit EV
Sideswipe & Sunstreaker = Lamborghini (Gallardo), of course. (I'm chomping at the bit to have a chance to make Sunstreaker into the 2010 Reventón Roadster. Check out the wiki picture here for the whole reason why. Omg~<3 )
Prowl = Dodge Charger LX, more specifically, an unmarked police car (kinda like the third picture down here)
Hot Rod = Fisker Karma (Technically, not this specific one, but it's almost chrome, which Hot Rod is.)
Cliffjumper = Audi R8 5.2 FSI (a decision I made before I looked at Sideways closer and recognized it :\ )
Wheeljack = Lotus Exige S (despite being a Lotus Elise according to my FF.N page. what? You mean all lotus cars don't basically look the same??? who knew?)
The Unknown = 2009 Mercedes McLaren SLR Stirling Moss, which is possibly the ugliest car ever. But. It fits. So. Well. WARGH.
CONCEPTIONS OF THE SELF IS, AS OF 2010, STILL A WIP AND NOT ABANDONED. DESPITE SEVERAL INCONVENIENT HIATUSES. I KNOW. Sorry. ;_;''
As always, thanks for reading, I hope it was worth the eyestrain :B
Title: Conceptions of the Self - also on FF.Net
Genre: General, Drama
Rating: R - for PTSD, 'gross' nightmares, body horror, and all those fun things
Disclaimer: I do not own Transformers, or the 2007 movie, or any variation thereof, nor is any profit being made (except the profit which is my own inflated ego). Liberties have been taken with the common laws of physics, culture, language, history, and all that good stuff.
Warnings: Cybertronian!Sam, genderless!robots
+ SUMMARY: [2007, AU] Sore throats, nightmares, and the differences between organics and Cybertronians - something is terribly wrong with Sam. To live is to evolve, and shape alone is not enough; think of it as a mutual learning experience. (Bot!Sam, PTSD, Mech/mech)
Notes:
- Sam is featured as what some might know as an Unreliable Narrator.
- SLOW STORY IS SLOW. Then I distract you with characters.
- There is an abundance of badly written action sequences. Sorry.
- Sam and Bumblebee as a pairing. Eventually. I swear!
- Other Bot!Humans in the works.
- This work pretty much AU's off from the exact moment Megatron offlines in the movie. Revenge of the Fallen as a plotline doesn't fit anywhere, whereas some elements of RotF do apply, such as characters and certain artifacts.
- Optimus Prime is a Prick. This was only reinforced by RotF GIVE-ME-YOUR-FACE!Prime. Oh god, a mei loev GMYF!Prime. :'D
Table of Contents
ALSO LOCATED ON FF.NET: Conceptions of the Self
Chapter One: The Aftermath
- - Quote: "I want," he said softly to avoid aggitating his throat, but the words still scraped and grated like broken glass or twisting metal, "to see my car."
- - In which Sam Witwicky rejoins his family and friends, and a few things come to light.
Chapter Two: Home Again
- - Quote: "Of course we don't download the internet. Your method of arranging and storing data is very space-consuming."
- - In which nightmares start, Sam gets back in contact with his friends.
- + Mikaela's Intermission: The Strangest Boy
- - Quote: It was 'my car' this and 'my car' that, from the moment she'd been pulled into the Camaro.
- - In which Mikaela has some thinking to do. FITS BETWEEN CHAPTERS TWO AND THREE
Chapter Three: Can't Relate
- - Quote: [Trent] was waiting right in the way for the parking lot with his shiny new blue Hummer, propped against it like he was the most awesome thing since awesome was awesome. Which he obviously wasn't, since Sam had met awesome and he came in yellow and black.
- - In which Sam and Mikaela decide where they stand, school is stupid, and Trent makes an appearance.
Chapter Four: Nightmares
- - Quote: Ninety-nine-point-nine-(et cetera, et cetera, for eternity) percent of the time, Sam would have rather taken on the Evil Cop Car and his spastic glitch buddy before he would have taken on Trent.
- - In which mei skips some time, we get an insight into Sam's nightmares, there is some weird Bee and Sam byplay, Sam and Trent have a 'disagreement', and Sam is just generally fragile all over.
- + Ratchet's Intermission: Worried About Bumblebee
- - Quote: Truth be told, he didn't even choose a side in this stupid war.
- - In which Rachet works while Ironhide worries. Wait ... Ironhide worries?!
Chapter Five: The Calm ...
- - Quote: And then his mind made the actual imagery involved, and his brain tried to short-circuit on the picture of a small yellow and black kitten.
- - In which Sam is in a Good Mood, there are more All Spark dreams, Mikaela talks about the future, and Miles and Sam gossip about her behind her back.
Chapter Six: ... Before ...
- - Quote: Of course, there was only so long that Sam was willing to ignore the fact that there was a strange Autobot in his driveway.
- - In which the first of the refugees shows up, there's more weird stuff going on, and Sam's Mother is too involved in his life.
Chapter Seven: ... the Storm
- - Quote: "And I'd be like a ... zombie. Skeleton. Animated Skeleton. But only in moonlight. You know, then your life would be really interesting -- giant alien robots and cursed pirate treasure and -- wereskeletons."
- - In which Sam sleeps in cars, there is drama in the Witwicky house, and the All Spark attacks Sam's sexuality directly for major damage!
- + Mikaela's Intermission 2: Fond of his Squishie
- - Quote:"Sam and Bumblebee ... are complicated."
- - In which Mikaela and Arcee gossip about Bumblebee and Sam. No, really.
Chapter Eight: Tempest
- - Quote: Bumblebee did manage to escape without injury, but not without playing the part of the car alarm that Sam was sure still meant 'up yours'.
- - In which Sam finally gives up and admits something is wrong, and the Autobots freak out.
- + Ratchet's Intermission 2: Prime is a Jerk
- - Quote: "-- and Primus have mercy on your sorry painted hide 'cause Bumblebee certainly won't!"
- - In which Ratchet deals with a medical-mechanical miracle and really wishes he didn't have to, Prime is a jerk, and Ironhide is a big softy. And they gossip. No chapter or intermission is complete without gossip.
Chapter Nine: Jacked Up
- - Quote: "... and by teenaged boy, I mean narrow-minded and too attached to his reproductive organs."
- - In which Sam has psychotic episodes, surgery is done, things are discovered and more Cybertronian history comes to light.
- + Prime's Intermission : The Reality of Hope
- - Quote: Sometimes he felt it was only himself that actually looked past the hope in the future and the possible reality. So far, he feared he was right.
- - In which Optimus Prime reflects on all that has happened and will happen, and he almost becomes aware of a reality of hope.
Chapter Ten: We all fall Down
- - Quote: It was an All Spark fragment, made of some strange metal that wasn't even like what the Cybertronians were made of, but the power of the All Spark was gone. Extinguished.
- - In which a lot of really bad things happen.
- + Ron's Intermission: The Witwicky Madness
- - Quote: He's never coming home. He's never -- even if he wanted to, he's never --
- - In which Ron get's his time in the spot light ... and whines. Crazily. Whoa.
- + Bumblebee's Intermission: The Hero Dies in this Scene
- - Quote: Though ... even if involuntary video recall was extremely unpleasant, it didn't stop him from accessing his memory banks often, anyway.
- - In which Bumblebee suffers a core matrix instability, hates to "dream", and remembers how his opinions changed and his understanding grew.
Chapter Eleven: Little Bot in the Big City
- - Quote: The fact remained that Sam was running across some very curious issues -- namely: the difference between 'possible' and 'Sam being able to do it'.
- - In which various terrifying things happen to Sam, and he is a woobie. See Sam woe. Woe, Sam. Woe.
Chapter Twelve: Out of the Frying Pan
- - Quote: Grudgingly, he 'started' his engine (or rather, he made a car noise ... which ... ha ha, was rather like a kid going 'vroom vroom', now that he thought about it)
- - In which various BAD things happen to Sam, just for variety. Also, Lamborghinis ... like nuclear fallout, in a way.
Chapter Thirteen: Into the Fire
- - Quote: Oh, sure, Carly might never step foot around another car judging by her hysterical crying as she ran away, pulled along by her boyfriend, but that might save her life one day ... if she ever ... you know, ran into a Decepticon.
- - Sam is helpful with Public Service Announcements for British youth. Also, cops chase him, not for the last time.
- + Jazz's Intermission: More than Sixty
- - Quote: On the first day, Primus said: let there be life -- and there was the Cube.
- - Jazz isn't the mech he used to be, but then again, neither is Bumblebee, and it all boils down to a little organic creature called 'Sam' and what he's become.
Chapter Fourteen: And a Bottle of Rum
- - Quote: Even now, they didn't seem to understand just how serious humanity could be about hunting aliens. Like witches ... only from outer space.
- - And some Sideswipe!PoV. I AM TIRED OF THE MOTHERBOARDING ROBOTS ON MY MOTHERBOARDING SHIP! >8(
Chapter Fifteen: On A Road With No Name
- - Quote: Today will be Prowly, with traces of emotion throughout the mission...
- - Moar Counterpart antics, then Enter teh Prowler! And Moar Autobots. And the NAIAS. And Sam get's a new Alt. Busy chapter was busy.
Chapter Sixteen: Witwicky Lives
- - Quote: "Prowl," he said sharply, "you and I are going to have a conversation about asking questions you don't really want to know the answer to. Soon."
- - Some Sambot and Sideswipe antics. Moar Prowl, moar Autobots, and then, Jazz finds them three days later.
Chapter Seventeen: It's a bildüngsroman, Samuel Witwicky!
- - Quote: Sam assumed that humanity had fucking ruined Wheeljack's day on account of not only being able to use radios and things, but also having a spoken language themselves.
- - In which Sam familiarizes himself with the other Autobots and massive amounts of SADFACE are had by the readers.
And some more-or-less technical notes -- o kk lol no not rly. Alt modes only. :B
Yes, I copypasta'd this from my FF.Net Profile. Because I am mad lazy liek whoa.
Canon bots as expected, except for RotF!bots, but if you read the story you'd know that. Sew, in order of appearance of noncanon bots:
Arcee = Mazda Miata
Elita-One = 2008 Jaguar XKR - not the prettiest car, but this review pretty much explains why I chose it. Classy.
Chromia = Hummer H3
Moonracer = 2008 Kawasaki Ninja ZX-10R, in Candy Plasma Blue
Sambot = Mini Cooper, then Dodge Circuit EV
Sideswipe & Sunstreaker = Lamborghini (Gallardo), of course. (I'm chomping at the bit to have a chance to make Sunstreaker into the 2010 Reventón Roadster. Check out the wiki picture here for the whole reason why. Omg~<3 )
Prowl = Dodge Charger LX, more specifically, an unmarked police car (kinda like the third picture down here)
Hot Rod = Fisker Karma (Technically, not this specific one, but it's almost chrome, which Hot Rod is.)
Cliffjumper = Audi R8 5.2 FSI (a decision I made before I looked at Sideways closer and recognized it :\ )
Wheeljack = Lotus Exige S (despite being a Lotus Elise according to my FF.N page. what? You mean all lotus cars don't basically look the same??? who knew?)
The Unknown = 2009 Mercedes McLaren SLR Stirling Moss, which is possibly the ugliest car ever. But. It fits. So. Well. WARGH.
CONCEPTIONS OF THE SELF IS, AS OF 2010, STILL A WIP AND NOT ABANDONED. DESPITE SEVERAL INCONVENIENT HIATUSES. I KNOW. Sorry. ;_;''
As always, thanks for reading, I hope it was worth the eyestrain :B