mind-numbing boredom.

over and over and over

what the fuck?

interesting how the people i feel closest to continue to leave me with a distinct sense of betrayl.
well, almost all of them.
it's good to occaisionally be reminded of who's really on your side.
even when it breaks your heart.

annoyed

how did i get here?

maybe it's because i don't really know anyone anymore, or have that many friends left here, or don't know who i am anymore, but i feel like i'm being pushed out and marginalized on a much greater scale than ever.
maybe i'm just paranoid, but it more than just sucks.

everything is better on drugs

i need to kick this shopping addiction and stop spending money like a drunken sailor so i can go to australia for grad school and not be piss poor while there.

my dad keeps opening my mail.

fucking pissed.