So tonite I went down to the beach b/c it was so nice outside and I needed to do a lot of thinking. It was so nice to just sit out there with my ipod on shuffle watching the waves crash and the moonlight just shinning over the ocean. I did a whole bunch of thinking and I realized that all the guys from him to now were just to replace him. To show ( Read more... )

So I decide to just give up on everything and anything that deals with guys. I told her today about everything and he has the fuckin nerve to lie about it and deny it when hello i had proof. Everything was sitting right there in front of her face and he lied. Then said that I just did it b/c of the fact that he didnt want to be with me. So yeah i ( Read more... )

so this here is gonna be a long ass journal entry. Everything blew the fuck up today. For those of you who dont know the situation I was in well then you dont need to know. Someone very close to me decided to take it into her hands b/c she was tired of seeing me cry and be depressed over him. I knew this was coming. I am just the dumb girl that ( Read more... )

I sit back and look at how my life is going, and I cant say that I'm proud of it. I always use the "if my dad was here things would be different." But would they be. Was I born a horrible person. Its been almost a year since I last went to his grave. And I work 5 minutes away from it. I promised him that I would visit him as much as possible. And ( Read more... )

Last night was fun as a bitch ( Read more... )

So everytime things seem like they are looking better ( Read more... )

Well I thought my life was getting back to normal ( Read more... )

So him and I talked ( Read more... )

So last night was fucked up ( Read more... )

So I love guada with nicole ( Read more... )