So tonite was alright. Lately I find myself wanting to wait for him. I mean I dont really want a relationship with anyone but him. And if i have to wait then I will. He says he thinks we will be back together but I dont know. I hate the waiting game but there's just something about him that I think I will wait. I wont give up this easily. I just ( Read more... )

yeah thats how i feel right now. AND I HATE IT! it seems no matter how much i tell myself everything will be okay it seems that its not. No matter how much I tell myself im thinking too much into something i still do it. I hate the fact that im so insecure. The fact that I hate when hes in these moods b/c then I feel like its something I did even ( Read more... )

So yeah I hate when im in my moods like this. I think too much into everything even when I know that I have absolutely nothing to worry about. Like Dane Cook says sometimes you just need a good cry. I feel like this is the night when I just need my good cry. I hate it. STUPID period messing with my hormones lol.  Sometimes I feel that he doesnt ( Read more... )

So its been a long as while since I've last updated this thing, and since I'm a fuckin procrastinator when it comes to homework I will update this thing ( Read more... )

I havent written in a while. So i thought since I'm in a "dear diary, mood apathetic" I would write in this to get some shit off my chest thats been bothering me. That might work ( Read more... )

I havent written in this in a long time ( Read more... )

At one point in my life I thought I was happy. I thought I was happy being single and living without him. At one point I thought it would be best for both of us for this to happen. Knowing that neither one of us would last through college. We couldnt last 100 miles away from each other. We just werent ready, we were unprepared. Seeing this I did ( Read more... )

Yes it is time for Mel to change back into the old Mel I once was. I cant keep living my life like this. The partying, drinking, i just cant keep doing it anymore. I am going down the wrong path and I dont want my life to be like this. I dont want to end up like this. I am hurting my family and most importantly my own mother. I cant keep this up ( Read more... )

So this weekend kinda blew ( Read more... )

So my life is looking up ( Read more... )