i am a terrible friend

i really suck at life

i miss my home

i'm ready to go back

ahh... i cant believe how much everyone is growing up... a week from monday is my 16th birthday! can you believe it?! i'm like freaking out because i'm going to be driving soon, then graduating soon, then on to college, and a job, and my own life.. i am so scared for it... so not ready.. and i look at myself and look at how much of an underachiever ( Read more... )

life is being weird and just when i think that relationships (not only romantic ones but others also) are over, people walk right back in ( Read more... )

you know what hurts the most? talking to you when you talk about her... she's the only one you ever wanted so why were you with me? don't get me wrong, i'm over you.. it just hurts to know that she will always be the one that i come second to, not just to you, to everyone

so this past week has been super confusing... i got dumped a week ago yesterday and now i am basically seeing jake's(the boy who dumped me) best friend.. yeah weird i know... he did make the first move, not me... soccer is finally over and track soon starts up, i am going to be doing distance which should be a good time... ehh not... i hate running ( Read more... )

so apparently drugs and alcohol are more important than i am and i am too much of a whore to be with... and the hits just keep on coming

i know it's been a long time since i've updated and i only do it really when i'm upset but oh well ( Read more... )

so new years is a time for changes right? i know that i have changed a lot since last new years... last year around this time i pretty much hated myself... i had just gotten into huge trouble with my parents for things that i'm not proud of and i was doing anything and everything to feel better about myself... i'm really proud because i'm not like ( Read more... )

so i heard about the two of them from kyle but i thought that it was just talk ya know... just some random rumor or something... but no... i guess thats the reason why he stopped talking to me, someone else who i guess wasn't what he called a "hookup"... i thought i wasn't but yet again i was wrong... when am i not wrong tho right? maybe i need to ( Read more... )