i say why not... why not do something that has no particular reason other than it is what you are doing... it is something... why go through the set organization or theory of any point in life... is there something that creates these meanings or am i just mortal... i can only see through these eyes and even when i say, "no," it could still happen ( Read more... )

you know... i keep seeing the most amazing night-sky events, i saw what looked like a grey rainbow at night, tonight i saw a shooting star and heard some drunk kids howling... i bet kids like that have a lot of fun... i am such a workaholic anymore... like, i'm lazy but i always have to be occupied... i can't even make myself go to sleep anymore, ( Read more... )

when the blatant flutter hazes your calls ( Read more... )

well... jess called me today... i had no idea who the hell it was... that was crazy... i know her # but i didn't recognize it... it seemed like a bad idea at first... but it was ok... she is formidable... i can even say, "go away" and she still calls me... hehe... well... at least there's that i guess... i can't get rid of her... haha... i don't ( Read more... )

tonight she comes for you
she'll take your hands away
you better watch now...
she'll be back again...

my emptied breast is caving in
brittle ribs don't see a way
she was going on
her latest whim

everyone sounds the same
try to yell and sigh
she didn't hear you say
get away from him

she'll be back again
she'll be back again
or i hope so
or i hope

i feel so strung out off of 2 cups of coffee... i just feel like shit... but on the up side... classes start on monday... really excited but i wish i had a place to live... i'll find something...

for some reason i think the time ( Read more... )

my fucking down week? i had a tense ass day with erin where i was just totally uncomfortable all day... then she told me that her and her boyfriend got back together like a week ago... oh well... but on top of that i get messaged by jess... not a good combo my friends... cause outside of all the tension that i have grown out of, there still is this ( Read more... )

ok... you forgot me, i'll forget you...

i'm erasing you and i'm happy...

i need to stop... before i wake up and i don't know you anymore...

why don't you take me somewhere i don't belong, and we'll hide there til morning...

i have had a few weird relapses this week... the lazy thing, the jess thing and strangely... the hospital thing... paige has meningitis and she's in the hospital... it really got to me... not like i was all panicky or anything... i just remembered it well all of a sudden, as i suddenly remembered a lot about jess last night in my random dream... i ( Read more... )