i wish there was a way to say this.
I just can't explain.
Have you ever seen that movie with the guy living his life, but he's not really in the world, and he's actualy a tv show but he dosn't know?

That how this winter feels.
Thats how everything seems to feel.

Andi's hella german.

♥

it's a horrible feeling

to feel like you can do nothing

all i can do is be here for him

and even thats hard

becuase i'm too screwed up myself

Another long quite night...another long quiet, lonely night spend at your side. Not a lot left to say... There's not a lot that i could say to change your mind. But iwht a little bit of money we could buy us a car. With a little luck we could get away from where we are. Let's get out of here. We'll drive, on thousand miles an hour. We'll fly by ( Read more... )

My boat has sprung a leak. I've tried and I've tried to repair it, but I'm much too weak. I am slowly sinking, writing this to you. Oh please come and save me, yes! Please do! I am on my back now, swaying left to right, as I solemnly remember, and hold on tight. You were wearing your top hat, with that silly little feather, and I wore my mother's ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like you care half as much as me. It’s probably not true, but from time to time it really does seem like it. It’s hard not to think that I’m the leftovers, that you can’t have her so you ended up with me. Sometimes when I look at you I feel like I’m gazing off at distant star. Something that once was here and now’s lost out there ( Read more... )

I'm deleting any post that arn't "writting ( Read more... )

no see
hello livejournal
its been a while
lets talk<3
i've missed you
hearts;

Walking down the street with strange techno beats, and I'm still trying to figure out why this rhymes.Emotional spins and crazy dreams of whatever the hell means life ( Read more... )

So I thought today was going to suck
But then it turned out pretty alright.
From like 10am to pm I was in Livermore &&
Me, Lizzy, and Jennifer hung out
Me and Jennifer played dress up
&&
Me and liz took pictures in the church bathroom
(they’ll be up soon)
then I came back to Tracy
and 2pm to about 5pm I hung out-
with john<3333 and 3 of his skater ( Read more... )

Is was hot, you know one of those afternoons where the heat just sucks up all of your energy and all you can do is lie on the couch and drift in and out of sleep. I need to do something, I should do something. Some landscaping guy is sitting at the dining room table with my mother and step father. I wonder if he really knows what he is talking ( Read more... )