standing in a crowd
walking through the hallways
among a mass of people
hanging out with friends

alone.

a world full of people
a country full of people
a city full of people

alone.

the care i feel for others
the care i feel for the world
the care i have to give

alone.
my heart cries
my brain confused
neither comprehend why i feel so....alone

so i hung out with this friend of mine from high school tonite, and we were just talking about what we have been up to lately and catching up and shit.  and mid discussion i realized that i'm not who i was back then let alone 6 months ago.  somewhere in the past few months i think i grew up.  i'm still the same person on the inside i just came to ( Read more... )

so i see i haven't written in a while.  seems to be that things just seem to be going really well right now. me and andy are doing so good its hard to believe that a month ago we were not.  he understands what i need and when without my saying a single word.  like yesterday i had a really long and hard day at work and alll i wanted was to relax and ( Read more... )

who wants to run far away with me ( Read more... )

there is so much going on right now that i don't even know how to feel about it in order to put it in words.  all i know is that i'm trying not to get down and to hope for the best of the situation.  i'm hoping that the doctors are wrong and that i'm perfectly fine more than anything else.  i can't afford to be sick, money wise or emotional wise.  ( Read more... )

i have never in my life been so relieved and happy in one day.

i owe a huge thankyou for those who have been there for me in the past few weeks....especially carrie.  thank you!

i feel so alone, like everyone i want to talk to about what is going on would just judge me and look at me completely differently.  the one person i need to talk to i can't and things just keep spiraling downwards faster and faster...all i can see is an abrupt stop and soon.  it makes me sad that something so important must be kept a secret.  i don ( Read more... )

no words can explain the situation i got myself in this time.

damnit!

i love how he says that i don't give him enough attention.  that i don't try hard enough to make the relationship work.  and then i call to see if he wants to do something but he can't because he has to play his computer game.  don't tell me that i don't try hard enough when i spend all my free time trying to hang out with you but when you would ( Read more... )

have you ever had that feeling that you can't breath ( Read more... )