my body is exhausted from trying so hard to 'be happy'

I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE HAPPY, LAUGHING, OR TRYING TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE LAUGH.

I'M REALIZING ITS ALL A COVER UP....

I'M NOT AS STRONG AS I SEEM TO BE.

CANCER SCARED THE FUCK OUT OF ME.

I'M NOT AS HAPPY AS I SEEM TO BE.

I'M A FUCKEN MESS.

I TAKE RISKS AND EVERYTIME I DO I GET HURT.

I'D DO ANYTHING FOR MY ( Read more... )

I love the summer time. I love the fact that all my friends that were away for school are back in orange county. I love the fact that I am getting in touch with my friends<3 I love the fact that Marianne and I love each other <3 I love the fact that we are best friends again. I love how we can talk about high school days and laugh at all the ( Read more... )

I am sick and tired of people talking shit about my brother.

I know he has issues but it bugs the fuck out of me when people talk about my brother like they know him or even judge him.

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I need good and somewhat fairly priced family law advice ( Read more... )

humm...havent been on here in forever.

So on the 18th I get to go in for another treatment and hopefully the last.  Doctor said hopefully this will take care of the cancer.  ::crosses fingers::

I got a new job at Kaiser.  I'm going to get paid big bucks there and get full benifets for kayla and I.   I feel so grown up now that I have a grown up ( Read more... )

humm...been going through a mini emotional rollercoaster lately.  It's weird how i freak out but then having someone to talk to makes me feel secure and calm again.

I miss having girl/friend time.  I miss all my friends.  I'm talking to Josh again.  I missed having a friend.  We just talk about everything and anything.  He tells me guy secrets ( Read more... )

Trying to find a sitter for new years eve is the hardest thing in the world.....anyone.....someone....help??!!

Glamis for New Years with the boy sounds like tons of fun though....

Going riding this weekend with the boy should be fun too

:-)

You Are a Peacemaker Soul


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For once in my life I have nothing to complain about.  Work is going great.  Seans is going to play the guitar and help my class out for our xmas show.

I have a wonderful boyfriend who I adore.  He's all I ever wanted and more.  It's weird how our paths crossed once again.  We used to talk like 2 years ago and somehow he found me once again. (on ( Read more... )

So Kayla went on her first 'date' today.  Woke up at 7:30 asking if it was time to go to the movies to watch the incredibles.  It was cute hehe.  The little boy bought her candy.  His mom called me last night to ask what her favorite candy was because he wanted to buy her candy for the movie.  He got a cool hair cut for the date and kayla wanted to ( Read more... )