All I do is love and care about Edwin. I don't see his mom or brother or friends or ESPECIALLY his dad caring about him as much as I do, yet he listens to them. He told me that they all said that I'm controlling and too bossy with him. Fuck that. I felt uncomfortable enough around his family. Now there's no way I can go to his house. I always had a ( Read more... )

In addition to my last post: I realized that I have unconditional love for Edwin. And that's the point that I knew that no matter what we face, we can make it through. I hope he feels the same.

All of a sudden I felt the need to post the fact that I love Edwin more than anything. I thank God so much for sending him to me. I think we are meant to be together. I know I hurt him sometimes and I feel so bad about it. I need to work on my self control with how I feel about his religion and family and the things that mean a lot to him, even ( Read more... )

I had a shitty day today. I don't really know why. I feel depressed. I didn't accomplish anything today... not even getting off my lazy ass. I have this weird thing where I have to start diets on Sundays.. and if not Sunday, Monday the latest or I screw up the whole week. And my mom made her really good dip and I didn't finish my food from ( Read more... )

Edwin always says that he wants me to have more self esteem. I don't know how to fix that. He doesn't realize all of the things in my life that gave me that low self esteem. Today Adam came up to me and looked at my stomach and asked me if I was pregnant... implying that I'm obese. Then he kept going with it saying that I'm pregnant and that he's ( Read more... )

My mom told me today that she doesn't think that Edwin and I are a good match. She said that she doesn't think that we have what a relationship needs to last. I have this pain in my chest. I only feel this way when I'm really sad about something. I can't believe she said that. And she really meant it. She should've known that's something that would ( Read more... )

Stephanie and Michelle were stuck at Oswego because of the snow so we couldn't go to Canada this weekend. Hopefully next weekend I can still go with Stephanie S and Lyndsay ( Read more... )

I didn't realize how early I had to leave to be on time to school when it's snowy out. My mom drives me to school cuz after I got in a car accident on my way to school I was too scared to drive there alone... I hate henrietta. Anyways... Friday we left a half an hour before my class started like usual and the trafic was so bad that it took an hour ( Read more... )

My dad has been nagging me about going to a SUNY school. months ago I filled out the SUNY application and applied to Fredonia, Brockport, Geneseo, and Oswego. My dad brought up Oswego the other day and before that I never really thought about it. But now that I've looked into it, it seems like a school I'd really like! It's so much cheaper than ( Read more... )

So.. I haven't updated in a while.. like always. Right now I'm enjoying all my free time. Soon my friends who aren't at MCC will be going back to school so I'm gonna be lonely. At least I'll get to maybe go to Nazareth to visit Melissa. Oh yea.. and I need to send the security guy a letter now so that I'm allowed back on the campus haha. I ( Read more... )