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All public entries are visible and down there vWOW, it's like every motherfucking thing that could just hit me this morning out of nowhere. Stupid pmsing, it's gotta be the time of the month but I hate that it needs to be for me to ( Read more... )

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

-tackle-

Today was great. Atleast, most of it was.
I haven't a clue what to say, I feel like collapsing and crying right now.

FUCKSMOKYTHECOWHORSE.
ARRRRGH.

Whatever, Mr. Whitaker, I was not placed on this Earth to prove myself to you.

GeeGee is flipping adorable, and I'm in love.
THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS, bye.

Another Saturday where the only plans I ever WANT to make get ruined. Always, always, always. It's not fair that everything always needs to depend on my stupid parents. They really need to get a divorce. I'm not gonna take the stupid bullshit every day, every night ( Read more... )

It's like I haven't the time to write in this lately. I'll try to post tomorrow night, being it's a Friday and all. But I'm afraid I'll need to be reading Smoky The Cowhorse.

I'm doing okay.
I think, atleast.
Some shit went down with Thomas, but we ofcourse resolved it and I am fine with us. <3 ( Read more... )

I've no idea how to explain what I felt.
It was just, like, heartbreak, disappointment, guilt, anger, and a million other emotions thrown in.

I felt like I was going to pass out from my breathing. It was so fast and the tears wouldn't stop. It hurt so bad.

I have absolutely nothing to say about anything else.
But it's 7:10.

What?
You promised.

I've been eating so much to the point where I feel like I'm going to puke just from Honey Nut Cheerios. I don't think this is normal, like, eating so much. I went from eating barely nothing to eating entire plates of food at each meal. I know for a fact this isn't going to help my body get into better shape... But I can't help it. I get sick either ( Read more... )

I thought the randomly crying in the bathroom was over with? I don't even think I'm pmsing right now, it's just all so emotional. Everything I do, I seem to hate. I swear I want to just smash the mirror. I hate the giant mirror in my bedroom. It's always reminding me how much I hate myself ( Read more... )

I feel like my heart is breaking ( Read more... )

Yesterday I stayed home from school because I had an appointment with Dr. Noroff. I don't know if that's how it's spelled, but I love her. She's pretty much the bombshizzle. Anyway, after that, I didn't go back to school but my dad brought me to the library to get some books for accelerated reading. I took 2 out and then wasn't about to go home and ( Read more... )

I honestly thought I'd maybe have a good day today. I mean, it started out fine, and it went pretty fine all day. Although I feel kind of out of place no matter where I am, I thought it went fine. My shoulder was touched and I almost fell over, but I'm trying to act like that wasn't too big of a deal to me. It was, and I hate that. I'm forcing ( Read more... )