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rip big mac, only the good die young...
why is it always bad things need to happen to remind you of all the great things you have in your life. today i recieved news that one of my childhood friends that i've known since i was 3 passed away. and i knew it was coming because unfortunately he was fighting a battle of cancer for a long time. He was strong enough to fight for 3 years but a ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Define Cheater
anything that involves contact. kissing, touching. i sometiems think heavy flirting is cheating as well. my boyfriend is in the navy and he consistently flirts with girls but sometimes he is unaware he is just friendly as he puts it. but when its on purpose and they know they are fericiously flirting thats when it crosses the line into cheating. ( Read more... ) -
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i dislike the navy. my boyfriend is going out to sea tomorrow for 2 months. and in reality im in complete denial of it. i just ignore the fact that i will not hear his voice for 2 months nevermind getting to see him. i know i can do it, i know it. its just going to be really hard, and really sucky. but in reality this is one of the healthiest ( Read more... ) -
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Here's a survey for you that I stole from ( Read more... ) -
long and thoughtful self reflection for school.
I always knew growing up I had a great life, my parents loved me unconditionally, I had a supportive family, and a healthy childhood. But now when I look back on my life its so hard to find happy points anymore. My mind goes right to all the bad things that have happened to me I guess because those situations have made me the person I am ( Read more... ) -
self reflection
so im taking this course on spirituality. and its really fucking with me. to say the least. it makes me think of everything bad that has ever happened to me and make me think of how i got through those situations and reflect on them. i closed those doors for a reason. i have dealt with my feelings, and now i closed them because honestly they can ( Read more... ) -
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so its been so long. i apologize. such a sucky lj friend. a lot has been happening. so lets recap ( Read more... ) -
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sometimes i wonder why me? why do things happen the way they do? why is that when im happy, and oding good something happens and everything turns to shit. i just hate getting my hopes up and then getting let down. and then having no one around. j just hate it. i was so happy and now one sentence ruined everything. im sick of getting disappointed. ( Read more... ) -
I know u well enough to know u never loved me why cant i feel anything from anyone other than u?
so today/lately i had this huge realization. first lets have some background information. i was with this guy, mike for 2 years. its was a pretty fucked up relationship to say the least. we broke up numerous times within the 2 years but no matter who broke up with whom we were always a part of each others lives. aka always waiting around for the ( Read more... ) -
journey of life
so right now in life things are very different. and i really dont know how to react to all these changes. i feel like someone threw my life up in the air and now im trying to pick up all the pieces and put them back into place. its weird. in a sense i look at myself and dont recognize myself but in a good way. ive grown up so much in the past year ( Read more... )