Birthday Blues...

[mellyweasel83]

So in exactly 7 days, I will be another year older, a feat I should be proud of that I actually survived another year on this planet. I should be excited to spend my special day with people that love me, and look forward to the celebrations that are planned for my day, but I'm not.

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[deans_mate]

I dread mine every year too and it is this month as well. The goals I set for myself are probably the only things that bug me anymore. My family - if they call or give a shit - well whatever.

It used to bother me when my sister or my father forgot to call and the reason is we are all in one week of this month. It is impossible to forget and I'd be pissed for weeks about it. Then there were the years that I found out my mom called them to remind them after listening to me bitch the other years - that pissed me off more.

So now I just don't give a damn. I've got some good friends on here, a handful of good ones outside of this box and my dogs. That is all I need I guess.

Love you, sweetness!

[mellyweasel83]

Yeah I really should just be like 'whatever'...but for some reason it still bummed me out...I guess cause we were all supposed to turn a 'new leaf' and be a 'family'.

I just don't understand why I can't have a special day too?

Thanks! Love ya too Chica! And I'll remember your birthday! :)

[deans_mate]

Oh I know what you about the "family" gig. We've been reduced to just calling each other now since my sister, brother and myself never all get along at the same time. It is always 2 of us against 1. So we don't even celebrate it together like we used to.

Holidays like Tday and Xmas, we come in shifts to my mom's cuz that is a nightmare in the making if all 3 of us are there at the same time. I think this last Tday, it was me - I went off on both of them for really no damn reason.

It is like it is bred into our genes or something to just hate each other at random moments. *shrugs*

[engelen]

1) Here's the thing: it's about you being healthier. Didn't you feel like, with more energy and better while on the program? That's why it is worth tryinig to live healthier. Even if you don't make it for your birthday, you can still work on it. Because it's for YOU. Make it your own birthday present

[mellyweasel83]

Your right I do feel better about myself while dieting and working out, but i don't know...I just really wanted to make my goal...

No you're right too, my dad is a douche...I mean I should of known he would do something stupid, but everyone was supposed to turn a 'new leaf' so to say, so I thought things would be different. I tried talking to him and all he does is deny everything about it....I don't know...I'm just worried this birthday is gonna be bad...

Thanks! I care about you too! :) in a total platonic, joel mchale loving way! LOL

[engelen]

*huggles*
I've been meaning to lose like 8 pounds for 3 years now and have not achieved it. But I don't give up, and at times I don't even care. I just remind myself that the important thing is to be healthy. To eat well and exercise (even tho I haven't done so since october n_n"). Just don't give up on yourself :3
*huggles again*

I guess he's just in denial. One of you has to acknowledge the truth, either he faces the fact that he's being a jerk to you, or you face the fact that he's not gonna stop doing that because he doesn't think he's hurting you.
However, what you NEED to know, is that it is NOT your fault. It's his doings and his alone. You've done NOTHING wrong.

*huggles once more*

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