Happy New Year everyone.

Apparently I need to come with a warning label that reads: "Do not get close to me. Do not rely on me. Do not count on me. I will fail you. I will let you down. I will hurt you ( Read more... )

Its so hard to think that for so long I thought we were on the same page... I feel as though I don't know what happened... I miss you and I want to see you, but I'm definatly too emotional. Its hard to think that for so long I tried so hard and didn't realize I was pushing against something that wasn't willing to give. I'm really confused at ( Read more... )

Next Monday, January 2nd, Deja vu. Jeff talked to Tracy and she should be the DJ, which would be awesome. With me planning this far in ahead all should pan out well. I'm excited. I can't wait to get on stage again. Of course, I'm going to be rough and suck, but its going to be a rush. I'm stoked.

Last night actually went fairly well. Christy's daughters are dolls and adore me. I really enjoyed hanging out with them. I was at my dad's until about 10ish. He let me borrow his car for last night and today. Jeff and Steve came over and hung out with me so I didn't have to spend the night home alone. I don't like being alone. Anyway, it ( Read more... )

Christmas is so hard every fucking year. I want to be happy. I really really want to be happy, but I'm finding it so hard. I'm sick of having to force my happiness. It just seems like nothing else around me is happy. Like I'm seeping into this deep dark hole of crap. I feel really alone. I know I'm not...if nothing else I have my dog, but I ( Read more... )

What a fucking long ass day. I enjoyed it though. I was actually upbeat and happy all day long. I was working on about an hour or less of sleep and I worked from 10am until 10:30pm...definatly a long day and with no real break. Fucking crazniness. Hopefully I'll be seeing some overtime in my paycheck ( Read more... )

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Craziness. Mike John came into work today as I was trying to head out and I totally cut him off mid conversation because I was running late. It was nice that he wanted to chit chat, but I had to go give my presentation ( Read more... )

Congrats to Autumn and Matt...you guys are awesome ( Read more... )