well im off to denver for a couple of days cant wait to leave for awhile, need to get away. once I return it is off to work for me. Alex is coming home soon so I cant wait for that its gonna be fun times.

How can a person love another so much that they are afraid to let go? Justin, wow never get me wrong I love the boy to death, i'm in love with the boy, but I'm hurting him and it kills me inside knowing that i'm the cause of it. It kills me seeing the person i love hurt,it breaks my heart to see him sad or depressed and im cause of it, I dont know ( Read more... )

I have found true happeness in my life but I have lost total control over my life as well. I have royally fucked up my life for good. I did it. Its come to the point in my life where I just want to be selfish and get what I deserve out of it, that isnt suppose to come off bitchy, but I know I'm not bad person. I know I deserve things like lately I ( Read more... )

I think I have experinced true happiness again. It is a great feeling. I can thrive off of it for the rest of my life.

( Read more... )

Do I have a soul?

My life is changing, Its hard to explain, I have all of these emotions going through me. I am turning 20 kinda soon and what in hell have I accomplished? I dont know what I want to do with the rest of my life hell I dont even have a job. I feel like I should be doing something with my life. But I spend my life in front of the computer or bitching ( Read more... )

Yeah talk about an emotional roller coaster, I have been having bad mood swings for no reason, its weird maybe it is stress or something and my body is trying to express it. Its weird how the body can tell you things.

Wow last night was soo much fun, went to the death cab show it was soo good to hang out with amanda havent seen her in ages. I finally get to start doing shows again. It makes me happy.

Oh yeah , i am living off of nw expressway now! so email or whatever if you want to hang out.