Indesrcibable Anguish ( Read more... )

well today actually hasnt been too bad of a day. I really cant afford more days off school, but it was unavoidable. There wasnt any way of being able to go to school with this much pain in my ear, and I really think a day at home to think was something I needed. Its weird how your body will tell you when to take a step back. But yea, I just layed ( Read more... )

ahh in lots of pain!! I woke up today at around 6 because of so much pain in my ear and I couldnt figure out why. So after an hour of laying there not knowing what to do, i got up and put some ear drops in my ear, but that didnt help, so i took some tyelnol, that didnt help, although it did help me to fall asleep. then when I eventually got up at ( Read more... )

god damn, stuck at home another saturday with not a thing to do. yep thats right, im a major looser. this weekend i actually had the option of making some plans, instead of just having them made for me, so i was going to find someone to hang out with, my cousin nicole wanted to come and get me, but i thought i had plans already so ive just been ( Read more... )

wow i had full intentions of doing this journal thing today and my mind is blank. i really think there is nuthing in there anymore. nuthing matters. have no thoughts. have no feelings. and when i do my thoughts are not anything anyone wants to here. and my feelings are so strong i refuse to aknowlege them. i just wish i could take a vacation from ( Read more... )

mreheh! eh...today was not that exciting. im sick so yea for being sick, even tho i have to go to school anyway. I thought we were going to get our year books today but no i am only a humbl junior, much to worthless to get a yearbook at the same time as the seniors. I was lucky tho that my mom would pick me up during 6th hour today bc i needed to ( Read more... )

yea! im happy i just got my mommy to order me a bunch of books ive been wanting to read!! hehe...im such a dork. Nicole-y is comming to spend the night with me...so woot for not be alone. and then im not going to be home the rest of the weekend, im going to kims to help her fundraise for her breast cancer walk. i heart not being home.

This weekend wasnt all too bad, went to staceys friday night and watched stigmata..it was freaky, and it scared the crap out of me. then saturday i had the spyder turner concert, which was fun for some parts, and then just boring at other times. after that i went back to kim and jameses and now im home. bla. i woke up feeling like crap, bad head ( Read more... )

im feeling so lost, i dont know why. i dont kno who i am, and i hate that feeling. its like everyone around me seems so self assured, and i cant even make a simple choice without reassurance. its like everyday im completely different person. one day i am flighty and happy, the next i am depressed and non-soial. i wish there could be some middle ( Read more... )

yea so this week has been very tireing, havent been able to sleep worth crap. its like everytime i try to fall asleep i just cant shut my fricken brain off, its very frustrating. But ive been thinking about some things and I just have to say, jessica is NOT a spoiled brat, Kelly nor brandi is a slut, me and meghan are bitches....but not stuck up, ( Read more... )