i'm so sick and tired ( Read more... )

my whole world is falling apart

help me, please..

( i need something newwww )

there's something arrogant & disarranged about the way that i discover authenticity; disregarding security or intellect or flavor, choosing simple con.nec.tion over complex conversation. disbelief in promise: promises were meant to be kept but made to be broken, the way we all are. satirically, every new beginning is a mockery of every related end ( Read more... )

this afternoon i got a letter in the mail. not a bill or a pamphlet or a magazine... a real letter. with no name, and no return address. but there's no doubt about who it's from, and i'm terrified of slipping back into the old pattern that i've been trying since july to pull myself out of.

...fuck.

"I want the love like me thinking of you ( Read more... )

my horoscope today tells me to "pursue romantic opportunities."
what the fuck.
no.

i hope somebody's happy to know that i'm miserable.

that i'm lonely. that i'm heavy. that i'm insecure again.
that i'm hopeless. that i'm tired. that i'm hurting.

i hope it goes away.

the things i could tell you would only break your heart.

it's over... and 15 days later i still can't believe it.

pictures of white dresses and babies will always remind me of the way you stared into my eyes and told me they sure don't make girls like me back home in kansas ( Read more... )