"throw me way i've got no use. I AM USELESS!!!"
why won't it fuckin end? i hate my life! I'm tired of putting on a fake smile! i always thought sucide was for idiots...but now it is very clear to me as why they do it. WE SUFFER IN THIS HORRIBLE WORLD. and everything I touch turn to dust...

"I RODE ALONE..."

haha i just realzied about two months ago i was actually close to grabbing daveys balls at the LAS VEGAS shows!!! i am unpredictable ( Read more... )

this past week was indeed AFI's biggest tour ( Read more... )

maybe?!?! well oregon is off the choices now. wahoo! very excited about that. new choice is La habra! sweet i think my life is finally becoming a fairytale. fuck that was gay. Mikey and I will be getting our own apartment! for now. all my friends better come visit me. i'll only be 40 mins away. i'll bein the OC. so i get to go to chain reaction way ( Read more... )

i miss the wonderous feeling of having a boyfriend...
or having one in presence.

you think people know who are already, but their despression does not allow to view it. I was called a fag, who wears AE clothes. WTF!? as everyone knows i hate thier clothes, EVEN my coworkers. i swear ask my manager and he'll reply with "i have no idea why fernando even works here?" (haha well main reason is cuz i can have piercings and whatnot ( Read more... )

fuck dude. the other night i was drunk...like beyiond drunk that i actually woke up with an upset belly!!! wtf lol. and not only that i saw and experiance horrible things at club trash. i rememeber going to the bathroom, and i started to pee, as i said "fuck i hope i'm not soaking my bed?" (haha i thought i was dreamin cuz the place was spining) ( Read more... )

so i worked the usual 8 hour shift today at work. it was awesome. i mean jokes were thrown here and there and i fuckin love my coworkers. well all went down after a customer came in ( Read more... )

well everything has been ok! have meet cool new peeps at work. been buying to tix for nonstop shows. i'm still broke though. *sigh* i wanted to buy this NICE shirt from work, but couldn't. which saddens me cus i like looking nice. haha i'm lame. missed Gorilla Biscuits today cuz of work. that also saddened me. Me and Maggs were so close to seeing ( Read more... )

well i guess the move to oregon has just might have gotten a lil bit more serious! i really don't wantto leave LA! i mean shows, afi, friends, and especially family. But i do need to get out on my own and start my own life. moving away with mikey might be just be the cure. I can be a lil more responsible. *sigh* who knows what may happen in october