"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid ( Read more... )

Time is flying right by me, and I dont even know where its gone. Perhaps I've missed it simply by SEDATING myself.. something I'm not proud of, but infinitely grateful for at the moment ( Read more... )

I need a new person. I'm not fishing for volunteers, it's just an observation. Someone who I feel comfortable talking to, not even to give advice.. but just to listen and understand. I have a few, but some stuff has gotten... dramatic, and I can't talk to anyone about everything. Perhaps that's why therapists are so popular. I love the people ( Read more... )

A quick apology in advance ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like the most un-organized person in the world. Back when I lived at home, my room was always a disaster... but I knew where everything was. Now my house is a disaster, and I have 4 other people in this house that move things around. I think I'm going to claim some space this weekend, whether it be a shelf, a cabinet, or a whole ( Read more... )

Anxiety's a bitch.. but it makes relief seem that much sweeter ( Read more... )

Well, here goes nothing =) No idea how to start, but I'm hoping my postings will become a more regular thing. Getting some of this stuff out of my head and onto a screen may help me make sense of it ( Read more... )

Sammy has lost his first tooth =) Its been loose for over a week, he has been very ambivalent about the whole thing. I think he may have been scared it was going to hurt?

We cant find his tooth. It came out some time today, and all he can tell me is that is was there this morning. Oops.

I am procrastinating. I dont want to fold laundry or do dishes or anything else remotely productive. I don't know where my motivation has gone.. it only came back for a couple of days ( Read more... )

It's raining yet again. I opened the back door and the air is lovely, cool and perfumed with the sweet smell of clover. My carpet is getting wet, but I don't mind. This is similar to the flower booth at Kroger.. which I admit I stop for nearly every visit. I push the literal limits of the cliche, but it works for me ( Read more... )