on the asocial intellectual (a personal text)

[menschlichen]

i'm basically, so fucking sick of implications that hunter or i (typically grouped cause we're friends, and both have casual sex sometimes or used to, and drink) aren't intellectuals somehow because- what, exactly? because we aren't so burrowed into our studies that we have social personalities that are frankly different from our intellectual ones

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[menschlichen]

I'm saying words/thoughts without a presence in deeds are useless; and that, while there is an important distinction to be made that must be made on an individual judgment basis (eg don't convert inappropriate social forums into forums for discussion of materials which not all present are able to discuss; primarily, don't use knowledge as a weapon to hurt others feelings or bore them, as i would be if i was quoting koolhaas, etc) HOWEVER don't allow convictions of racial, gender (and transgender) equality,and a belief in democracy to coexist with whitebread tastes in persons AND EQUALLY culture (note recent criticism of the nature of indie rock as a peculiarly white genre; sasha frere jones has recently written about this in the NYer, for example; the same, frankly could be said of BM or noise, though i certainly like those musics myself- but, one must really make an effort to escape ones social/demographic group of white intellectual IF ONE IS SERIOUS ABOUT DEMOCRACY, if one does not care about democracy then, this argument is not

[toxicoworld]

blahblahblahblahblahblahmynameisjacob balhblahablahmarxismblahblahblahblah.

you and hunter had casual sex? so now we ALL have aids? you monsters(s)!

[menschlichen]

i guess the self centeredness of this shows through,. its also though, of all possible insults that match with my self perception, the last plausible one is superficial? but i keep encountering it and it makes me feel that maybe my self perception is even more skewed than normal, which then, causes me to rabidly respond in this way

[sssuperego]

i hate it when people rip on hunter and you. believe you me, i am your number one supporter

JACOB RULES! JACOB RULES! JACOB RULES! HUNTER TOO!

and do you wanna meet up at 807 for some early morning blowout drinx?

[menschlichen]

yeah bro seguro

[xzar]

i'm there, don't count me as square. funny how, in my proximity to you, it seems i've avoided catching the same flak that you and hunter have caught. (i suppose you and i don't do the same things when it comes to sex, which is actually not that important, i know, but other people make sex life out to be such a judge of character. to bad they're wrong.) actually, when it comes down to it, i feel pretty bland in comparison to you. i lament it, and blame it all on my lack of travel, mostly. we'll discuss more on this at one of our far to infrequent meetings, yes?

[menschlichen]

you know, i lament greatly at how infrequent those meetings are; if it is any consolation my meetings with anyone other than my candy counter boss and a computer in swem have become infrequent. it is strnage- and you know again, we've discussed this, how you are percieved as so subcultural you are somehow in a weird unjudgeable dimension (i remember disucssing something along those lines that frustrated you). I also think- hunter and I are more needy of positive judgments from outsiders than you are, and that also influenes things- maybe, simply, you just dont care as much as hunter or I.

[lesser_zoon]

As someone who appreciates your startling intelligence it stresses me out to hear all this. I also feel as though you might be holding up a mirror to a lot of people, including myself. I've sort of done a 180 and sworn off sex / partying etc. recently, not that I was doing much partying to begin with, and found myself in an ivory tower, which I certainly don't deserve to be in...shriveling up in a dark hole with a pile of books won't make me a true intellectual.

I miss you dude. I know I say that and then rarely follow up on it by calling you or whatever, which sort of illuminates my habit of shriveling up in dark holes and avoiding excitement of any kind...
But really, I do miss you. And your lovely outfits!